Dr. Lavendar's PeopleDeland, Margaret Wade Campbell
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Dr. Lavendar's People
Deland, Margaret Wade Campbell
Clergy -- Fiction; Pennsylvania -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Villages -- Fiction
"My dear friend, you must meet this affliction; you can't escape; we
can't save you from it. But there is one thing you can do: you can try
to spare the pain of it to other people. Set yourself, Miss Harriet,
to make it as easy as you can for those who stand by."
Harriet Hutchinson looked at him in amazement. No pity? No
condolences? Nothing but the high charge to spare others. "You mean
my temper?" she said at last, slowly.
"Yes," said Dr. Lavendar.
Miss Harriet blushed hotly. "It is bad; I know it's bad. But--"
"Mine would be worse," said Dr. Lavendar, thoughtfully. "But look out
for it, Harriet. It's getting ahead of you."
Miss Harriet nodded. "You're right."
"You see, when you are out of temper it shows you are suffering; and
that's hard for us to bear--not the temper, of course, but the
knowledge. So you've got to spare us, Harriet. Understand?"
"I understand."
"It will be hard work for you," he said, cheerfully; and somehow the
words meant, not pity, but "_Shoulder arms!_"
For an instant they gazed, eye to eye--the woman devoured by pain, the
old man with his calm demand; and then the soul of her rose with a
shout. What! there was something left for her to do? She need not
merely sit still and die? She need not wait idly for the end? It was
a splendid summons to the mind--a challenge to the body that had dogged
and humiliated the soul, that had wrung from her good-humored courage
irritability and unjust anger, that had dragged her pride in the dust
of shame, yes, even--even (alone, and in the dark), but even of tears.
"_Make it as easy as possible for those that stand by._"
Some might say that that austere command was the lash of the whip; but
to Miss Harriet it was the rod and the staff. The Spartan old man had
suddenly revealed to her that as long as the body does not compel the
soul, there is no shame. As long as she could hold her tongue, she
said to herself, she need not be ashamed. Let the body whimper as it
may, if the soul is silent it is master. Miss Harriet saw before her,
not humiliation and idleness and waiting, but fierce struggle.... And
it was a struggle. It was no easy thing to be amiable when good Maria
Welwood wept over her; or when Martha King told her, flatly and
frankly, that she was doing very wrong not to make more effort to eat;
or even when Mrs. Dale hoped that she had made her peace with Heaven.
"Heaven had better try to make its peace with me, considering," said
Miss Harriet, grimly; but when she saw how she had shocked Mrs. Dale,
she made haste to apologize. "I didn't mean it, of course. But I am
nervous, and say things to let off steam." Such an admission meant
much from Miss Harriet, and it certainly soothed Mrs. Dale.
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