He hesitated for a moment. A disagreeable feeling that some shock was
awaiting him in this threatened revelation made him almost inclined to
refuse to hear it, now and for always.
What if he had refused? What if he had left her there and then,
unconfessed of her secret, whatever it might be? Would it have changed
his after life? would it have averted his fate? Often afterwards he
asked himself this question, in wonder, in awe: that question which none
on earth could answer.
He did not refuse. He seated himself by her, and said:
“You are mysterious.”
“Yes,” she said, simply. “It is all a dreadful mystery. You know, every
time I have seen you, you have made me feel stronger. That is why I ask
you to see me for five days, and then I tell you all! I tell you—you
will be frightened when you hear what I have to say!”
There was no lightness about her voice and manner. Indeed, she spoke
with reluctance, almost with pain.
“I do not think there is much which can frighten me now,” said Hugh,
reassuringly. “You can tell me everything, anything you please.”
A nervous tremor shook her whole frame.
“I _will_ tell you,” she said, almost convulsively. “I dreamed a dream
once, when I was a child. I was sitting on a stone bench, such as we
have in our country. But round me were dark trees, dark bushes of the
sort we do not have there. It was dark. I dreamed I was in the
expectation of some one to come to me. I was sitting there, waiting.
Then I saw the moon, and just as I saw the moon, I saw some one who
came—a man; and I knew that the man was the one I loved before
everything, and as I did not love anyone else.”
“Yes,” said Hugh, encouragingly.
The words brought back some unpleasantly suggestive recollection, but
indistinctly.
“I woke from that dream,” she went on, musingly; “and I knew it was not
like other dreams. I knew that it meant something. I had been not fond
of people like my girl friends were fond of people; but that man, oh! I
loved _him_!”
“Did you recognise him?” asked Dr. Paull, feeling uncomfortable, he
hardly knew why.
She shook her head.
“No,” she said, “not _then_.... I will tell you. I did not dream that
dream again. It made me think; I told my confessor. It was not like
other dreams. If ever I see the place I shall know it; of that I am
sure.”
“And the man?” asked Hugh.
“I did not see his face,” she went on. “Only from what I felt did I
guess him to be the same.”
“As what?” His heart beat quick.
“As the man of the dreams which made me so—so unhappy.”
She spoke almost piteously.
“And what were they?” asked Hugh.
Pale as she had been when she came, she grew paler still.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account