“I cannot doubt your impressions,” he said, after hearing details. “But,
visionary though people think me, I confess to but small belief in
dreams. I can believe that there may appear to be a strong similarity in
a vivid dream to facts that afterwards ensue. But you, in your own book
_On the Physiology of Sleep_, refute the idea of impressions we receive
in dreams and our waking memory of those impressions coinciding. The
fact is, that when you thought you dreamt of those chapters I headed ‘On
the Age of Souls,’ I had not even planned out their synopsis.”
“But you knew the doctrines then, Mr. Helven,” said Hugh.
“The doctrines are as old as the hills, Dr. Paull,” said Helven. “But is
your story a story of dreams?”
“I wish it were!” said Hugh. “No, what I have to tell you is simple
fact. I trust you; so I will not disguise identities. The tale is of my
own life.”
He briefly recounted his acquaintance with Sir Roderick, his affection
for Lilia, and their marriage, not omitting his dream of a strange lady
who spoke strange words to him with a foreign accent: the dream which he
believed now to have been a prevision of Mercedes.
“My wife loved me unreasonably,” he said. “At times I feared the feeling
might become a monomania. Poor child! when I had to tell her that she
must resign herself to die, there was a terrible scene.”
He recounted the awful hour of his life, when Lilia exacted a promise
that as soon as she was dead he would commit self-murder, and how he was
saved by the accident to the babe, and Mrs. Mervyn’s consequent
interruption with the child in her arms.
“I was sitting at the table in the library when this friend, with my
child in her arms, suddenly appeared,” he said. “Pistols were on the
table before me. I was resting my arms on the table and my head was bent
down upon them. I am telling you these details because they bear upon
the extraordinary part of my story.
“Well, I was saved. Then followed nineteen years of hard work and
solitude. I have shunned society; I went weekly to the Pinewood, to my
wife’s grave. I did all I could to prevent my poor child from feeling
her loss; and in this sort of life I hoped to atone to my wife’s spirit
for breaking the terrible promise she forced from me on her death-bed. I
had many hours of wretchedness when I remembered her frame of mind when
she passed into the Infinite. Often and often I reproached myself that I
had not taken her atheism more seriously, that I had not made her
realisation of Eternity my constant work. Since her death I have tried
constantly, in all possible ways, to communicate with her soul, wherever
it may be. But pray, struggle, do what I might, I failed.”
“You, with your knowledge, believed it possible for an embodied spirit
to communicate with the immaterial?” asked Helven, leaning back in his
chair, surprised.
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