And the more he thought of it, the more terrified was he at the idea.
Familiarity with mental disease, intercourse with those labouring under
it, had by no means softened its terrors to George Wainwright. True, he
had no physical fear in connection with the mere vulgar fright which is
usually felt with "mad people." He had no experience of that; but he
had seen so much of the gradual growth of the disorder; had so often
marked the helpless, hopeless state into which those suffering under it
fell--silently indeed, but surely--that he had come to regard it with
greater terror than the fiercest fever or the deadliest plague.
And now, when for the first time in his life he had fixed his
affections on a girl who seemed likely to return his passion, and who
in every other way was calculated to form the charm of his home and
the happiness of his fireside, he had to acknowledge to himself that
she was afflicted with this dreadful malady. It was impossible to
palter with the question; he had tried to do so a thousand times; but
his strong common sense would not be juggled with. And there the dread
fact remained--the girl he loved was frequently liable to attacks of
insanity. He must face that, look at it steadily, and see what could be
done. Could she be cured?
Ah! how well he knew the futility of such a hope! How many instances
had he seen in his father's house of patients whose disease was not of
nearly such long standing as Annette's, had indeed only just begun,
and who were in a few days, or weeks, or months at the farthest, to be
restored, with all their faculties calmed and renewed, to their anxious
friends!--and how many of them remained there now, or had been removed
to other asylums, in the hope that change might effect that restoration
which skill and science had failed in bringing about!
The last day of their stay had arrived, and on the morrow George was
to accompany his friend back to London. The Captain was out for his
usual ramble, Paul was closeted with his mother, and George was sitting
in the little room which, owing to the few books possessed by the
family gathered together in it, was dignified by the name of a "study,"
and which overlooked a splendid view of the bay. He was standing at
the window, gazing out over the broad expanse of water, thinking how
strangely the usually calm-flowing current of his life had been vexed
and ruffled since his arrival there, wondering what steps he could
take towards the solution of the difficulty under which he laboured,
and what would be the final end of it all, when he heard a door close
gently behind him, and looking round, saw Annette by his side.
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