"When I went this afternoon to visit your neighbor, Lizzie, I
perceived immediately from the change in him that the end was not
far off, though I did not think it would come today. But he did.
He was in bed when I entered his room, and as soon as he saw me,
he looked up and welcomed me with a pleasant smile and said, `Ah,
Doctor, I am so glad you are come! I was just going to send round
for you! Not that I think you can do me any more good upon earth,
for I know that tonight I shall go to my long rest. To my long rest.'
He lingered so strangely and so contentedly over these words, that
I was singularly touched, and I sat down by his bedside and took
his thin white hand in mine. 'Doctor,' said he, presently, `you
have been very good and kind to me now for more than ten months,
and I have learned in that time to trust and esteem you as though
I had known you for many long years. There are no friends of mine
near me in the world now, for I am a lonely old man, and before I
came here I lived alone, and I have been lonely almost all my life.
But I cannot die tonight without telling you the story of my past,
and of the days when I used to be young,--very long ago now,--that
you may understand why I die here alone, a white-haired old bachelor;
and that I may be comforted in my death by the knowledge that I
leave at least one friend upon earth to sympathise in my sorrow
and to bless me in my solitary grave. 'It is a long story, Doctor,'
said the little old man, 'but I feel stronger this afternoon than
I have felt for weeks, and I am quite sure I can tell it all from
end to end. I have kept it many years in my heart, a secret from
every human soul; but now all is over with my sorrow and with me
for ever, and I care not who knows of it after I am gone.' Then
after a little pause he told me his story, while I sat beside him
holding his hand in mine, and I think I did not lose a word of all
he said, for he spoke very slowly and distinctly, and I listened
with all my heart. Shall I tell it to you, Lizzie? It is not one
of those stories that end happily; like the stories we read in
children's fairy books, nor is it exciting and sensational like
the modern popular novels. There are no dramatic situations in it,
and no passionate scenes of tragical love or remorse; 'tis a still,
neutral-colored, dreamy bit of pathos; the story of a lost life,--
that it will make you sad perhaps to hear, and maybe, a little graver
than usual. Only that."
"Please tell it, Dr Peyton," I answered. "You know I have a
special liking for such sad histories. 'Tis one of my old-maidish
eccentricities I suppose; but somehow I always think sorrow more
musical than mirth, and I love the quiet of shadowy places better
than the brilliant glow of the open landscape."
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