"Oh, go on, please--go on! It is of the utmost importance."
"Indeed!" he replied, colouring. "I should not have thought you
understood."
"Oh, I do, sir--I do! I love the great Herodotus--the father of all
history, is he not?"
"Yes, child."
Really I believe, for the first time in his whole life, my father was
aware of Augusta's society; he now addressed his remarks to her,
evidently thinking the rest of us of no importance. He put questions to
her which she answered; he drew her out; she had an immense amount of
miscellaneous knowledge with regard to the old classics. Her hour had
come; her cheeks blazed; her eyes were bright; she was lifted off her
feet, metaphorically, by my father's appreciation of her talents.
"A remarkable girl," he said afterwards when I was alone in the room.
"A friend of yours, Dumps?"
"One of my schoolfellows," I said.
Then I took hold of his hands.
"Father!"
"Well, Dumps?"
"I want to speak to you."
"Yes, my dear."
"It was very good of you to do what you did for me, and now you are
going to send me to a school in Paris."
"Indeed I am not," said my father.
"You are," I replied; "it is all arranged. My step-mother said so."
"Grace, bless her! She has a great many schemes on hand. But I think
you will have discovered for yourself, Dumps, that I cannot possibly do
such a thing. Indeed, I don't particularly care for the French mode of
education. If you must go abroad, go to Germany. In Germany we find
the greatest thinkers of the last three centuries. Put yourself under
them, my dear, and it is possible you may come back an intelligent
woman."
I did not say much more. By-and-by I went up to my room. Augusta had
not come upstairs. I had a few moments to myself. I locked the door
and flung myself on my bed. Oh, what a silly, silly Dumps I was! for I
cried as though my heart would break. It was not father who was sending
me to the school in Paris; it was my new mother--my step-mother. Was I
beholden to her for everything? Of course, she had bought me the
clothes, and she had provided all the new and delightful things in the
house. Could I take her gifts and stand aloof from her? It seemed
impossible.
"I cannot love her," I said to myself. "She is nice, but she ever and
ever stands between me and my own mother. I cannot--cannot love her."
"Then if you don't love her," said a voice--an inward voice--"you ought
not to take her gifts. The two things are incompatible. Either love
her with all your heart, and take without grudging what she bestows upon
you, or refuse her gifts."
I was making up my mind. I sat up on my elbow and thought out the whole
problem. Yes, I must--I would refuse. I would find father some day
when he was alone, and tell him that I, Rachel, intended to live on the
little money he could spare me; that I would still go to the old school,
and wear shabby dresses. Anything else would be a slight on my own
mother, I thought.
PART TWO, CHAPTER SEVEN.
A NEW REGIME.
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