"Not a bit of it. The thing that I want I can't attain to."
"What do you want?"
"To be very, very plain, to have a free time, to do exactly what I
like--to knock over tables, to skim about the country at my own sweet
will unchaperoned and unstared at; never to be expected to make a great
match; never to have any one say, `If Lilian doesn't do something
wonderful we shall be disappointed.'"
"Oh, well, you never will get those things," I said. After a time I
continued--for she kept on looking at me--"Would you change with me if
you could?"
"I shouldn't like to give up mamma--dear mamma _is_ a darling; she
really is, although she is always putting her foot into it. She put her
foot into it now; but, you see, it was rather good after all, for I saw
you and I noticed that you had heard what mamma said. Now, mother never
does _outre_ things with her body, but with her lips she is always
giving herself away. I couldn't leave her even to change with you."
"Well, I'm plain enough."
"Thank Providence for that. You are plain; I quite admit it. But I
will tell you something else. Your step-mother is the most delightful
woman--"
"Oh, you have been very nice, Miss St Leger--"
"They call me Lady Lilian," she interrupted.
"Oh, but that is rather too terrible."
"Why should the fact of being an earl's daughter make me a scrap better
than you, who are the daughter of a very great professor? But, anyhow,
you may call me Lilian; you may drop the Lady. Now go on."
"I wish you wouldn't begin to praise _her_."
"Oh, then, you don't like her? You are one of those naughty little
girls who won't take to her dear step-mother. Dear, dear!"
"She is as good as gold," I said.
"I see what it is," said Lady Lilian; "you and I must have a long talk.
We must be friends. Have we not talked together over the lost Salviati?
Have we not both sighed over the _mal-a-propos_ remarks of my dear
mamma? We ought to be friends. Don't I wish to have your looks? And
doubtless you wish to have mine? Why shouldn't we be friends?"
"Let us," I said. I was bewitched, charmed. I had forgotten my shyness
and felt quite at home with her. In fact, as Lady Lilian went on
talking I felt rather superior to her. It was the first time in all my
life I had regarded my plainness as a distinct and most valuable
acquisition.
"That's all right. I'll introduce you to mamma. Come along now this
very minute; she is rising to go."
"But I sha'n't see much of you, for I am going to school on the 21st."
"To school! Heavens! Why?"
"My step-mother wishes it."
"Poor little thing! I see. And where?"
I mentioned the school. Her eyes brightened.
"Oh, you are going there?" she said. "Then I don't think I do pity you.
I was there for a year; it's an awfully nice place, and there are some
of my own friends there. I'll write and tell them about you. Oh! come
along; there is mamma at the door."
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