Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
Jennifer was on her feet, voluble, calling loud good-nights. They made a
group round her and round somebody still sitting on the floor beside
her. Judith caught a glimpse of a dark head leaning motionless against
the mantelpiece. Now they were all going away. Judith followed them
slowly to the door and there paused, looking over her shoulder towards
the fireplace.
‘Stay,’ said Jennifer shrilly. She was standing and staring at Judith
with wild eyes; pale, with a deep patch of colour in each cheek, and
lips parted.
‘No, I must go. I’ve got some work,’ said Judith, smiling over her
shoulder. She let her eyes drop from Jennifer’s face to the other one.
At last it confronted her, the silent-looking face, watching behind its
narrowed eyes. The hair was black, short, brushed straight back from the
forehead, leaving small beautiful ears exposed. The heavy eyebrows came
low and level on the low broad brow; the eyes were long slits,
dark-circled, the cheeks were pale, the jaw heavy and masculine. All the
meaning of the face was concentrated in the mouth, the strange wide lips
laid rather flat on the face, sulky, passionate, weary, eager. She was
not a young girl. It was the face of a woman of thirty or more; but in
years she might have been younger. She was tall, deep-breasted, with
long, heavy but shapely limbs. She wore a black frock and a pearl
necklace, and large pearl earrings.
Judith said politely:
‘Is this the first time you have been here?’
‘No.’ She laughed. Her voice was an insolent voice.
‘I’m tired,’ said Jennifer suddenly, like a child.
‘You look it,’ said Judith. ‘Go to bed.’
‘I’ll get undressed.’ Jennifer passed a hand across her forehead and
sighed.
The woman by the fireplace fitted a cigarette into an amber holder
slowly, and lit it.
‘I’m not sleepy yet,’ she said. ‘I’ll wait till you’re in bed and come
and tuck you up.’
‘This room feels----’ cried Jennifer staring around her in horror. She
dashed to the window and flung it wide open; then disappeared into her
bedroom; and there was not another sound from her.
The woman started singing to herself very low, as if forgetful of
Judith’s presence; then broke off to say:
‘I like your kimono.’
Judith wrapped the long red and blue silk garment more closely round her
hips.
‘Yes. It was brought me from Japan. I gave Jennifer one. A purple one.’
‘Oh, that one. She’s lent it to me. I forgot to bring a dressing-gown.’
She turned her head away, as if to intimate that so far as she was
concerned conversation was neither interesting nor necessary.
Judith bit back the ‘Good-night, Jennifer’ which she was about to call;
for she was never going to care any more what happened to Jennifer;
never again soothe her when she was weary and excited, comfort her when
she was unhappy. She would look at Jennifer coldly, observe her vagaries
and entanglements with a shrug, comment upon them with detached and
cynical amusement: hurt her, if possible, oh, hurt her, hurt her.
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