Bildungsromans; Psychological fiction; Young women -- Fiction
After an hour the first pause to cool her forehead with a stick of
frozen Eau de Cologne and to sip some water. Behind, poor Mabel’s dry
little cough and sniff went on. The head bowed low over her writing
looked as if it could never raise itself again.
Girls were wriggling and biting their pens. Somewhere the tooth-tapper
was playing her dreary tune. The Cow looked up, shed a peaceful smile
around her and continued to write, with deliberation, a little impeded
by her bosom.
Another hour fled. The trouble was having too much to say, rather than
too little. The room was rigid, dark with concentration now. There came
an appalling confusion of haste and noise, and a girl rose and ran from
the room, supported by the invigilator. The handkerchief she held to her
nose was stained sickeningly with scarlet. She returned in a little
while, pallid and tearful, resumed her seat, bowed herself once more
over the paper.
Three hours. It was over. You could not remember what you had written;
but you had never felt more firm and sure of mind. Three hours nearer to
life.
Into the street once more, beneath the noon sun’s merciless
down-beating. But now its rays seemed feeble: their warmth scarcely
penetrated chilled hands and feet, or shivering, aching back.
A troop of undergraduates passed on the way from their examination room.
They looked amused and exhilarated. They stuffed their papers into their
pockets, lit pipes, straightened their shoulders and went cheerfully to
lunch.
The girls crept out in twos and threes, earnestly talking, comparing the
white slips they carried.
‘Did you do this one?’
‘What did you put for that?’
‘Oh, I say! Will they take off marks do you think?’
‘It was a beast.’
‘Oh, it might have been worse.’
Girls really should be trained to be less obviously female students. It
only needed a little discipline.
There was Mabel to be looked after. She was grateful, passive: she drank
much coffee but refused food. She broke the heavy silence once to say
with a quiet smile: ‘Of course I see now I shan’t pass--It seems a pity,
after all that work--My memory is practically gone----’
Back to the vault now for another three hours.
Suddenly round the corner came a slender, dark, sallow boy. He walked
with an idle grace, leaning slightly forward. His faint likeness to
Roddy made the heart leap; and his expression was dejected and
obstinate, just as Roddy’s would be if he were forced to spend an
afternoon scribbling infernal rubbish.
Judith paused at the entrance of the vault and looked back. His eyes
were eagerly fixed on her: and she smiled at him.
He was delighted. His funny boy face lost its heaviness and broke up
with intimate twinklings; and flashed a shyly daring inquiry at her
before he vanished round the corner.
It was like a message from Roddy, sent forward to meet her from the new
life, to say: ‘Remember I am coming.’
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