New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction; Romans à clef; Spouses -- Fiction; Women novelists -- Fiction
It had been a strange and cruel feature of it that her tea roses were
more humanly pitying than she; for they had given out to him a breath
of home. “And don’t you think, Dinah, that sometimes a merciful lie
is the act of a compassionate God?” He did not say what he had wished
her to lie about. Each minute had been as long as a man’s life. There
had been a drag in time itself that dulled the nerves. For she was so
clear and direct, when she made her wishes plain, that she might not
have realized it was her husband to whom she made such a proposal.
He had asked what she wished him to do, and she had said “Nothing.
What on earth should I wish you to do?” However, it had seemed not to
impress him, that she thus sacrificed his future freedom while claiming
her own: there was something more dreadful on his mind. Telling me of
it--and not telling me the black thing in his mind--he paced the length
of my room, his head bent and his gaze on the floor. He could not, for
a while, rouse himself from a creeping paralysis of the senses. He must
have so paced when he cautioned himself to have patience with her. He
had said to her--speaking with great self-control, he assured me: “I
acknowledge I don’t see what you mean. You’re usually inconsistent; but
this time you’ve gone beyond the reasoning faculties of a mere man.” He
said that he listened to his own voice, and that it had not revealed
his rising fury. And then he was aware that his voice had flattened,
and that he was assuring her that she should have her divorce. “Only
make it as quiet as possible, on account of my mother.”
She had stared at him, he reported; he had noticed that her eyes had
blared wide open. “Can’t you understand,” she had demanded impatiently,
“that I don’t want a divorce? That I don’t need a divorce? Why should
I want a divorce, when God knows I’ve had enough of marriage?” She had
immediately changed to softness, and had added: “I think we could be
friends. We’d be so much better friends if we were separated.”
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