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otherwise, the fabric of his life would have been at once unravelled.
He thought it fortunate that he could hold so firmly to this one truth,
for a suspicion of Eva’s superiority would have broken the image of
his love. He did not wish her to be more sensible; he wanted her to be
sweeter. He might shout at her to be sensible, but he wanted her to
be foolish. He said--for a moment sheepishly a boy in love--that with
her hair of so fine a gold that it was silvery, with her delicate skin
so faintly flushed with rose, she had always seemed to him a lovely
creature of the moonlight: no, she herself was the moon of his delight.
I said--cruelly, because Eva had accused him of sentimentality: “How
could you have forgotten that the moon wanes, and is cold and not to be
counted on to warm the house?” Before the eyes of his mind there should
have risen the unnatural moon--large, and artificial like a stage
setting--rising to look at the astounding city with a face of dead
stuff.
He soared above my objection. “She’s so untouchable,” he said with
admiration that did not now complain. Always when within his reach,
she stood straightly upright; if she had had a less plastic body she
would have given the impression of rigidity. But in her eyes he usually
discovered a beam of playful fondness. “Dear old Nick! You will be
foolish!” Even when telling me of it, he chid himself: so often he
forgot her fastidiousness. He knew that a man must be careful in his
treatment of Eva, ever bearing in mind her embarrassment in bodily
contact. This, I gathered, he attributed to purity. Her notions often
irritated him; but he acknowledged that he should make an effort to
comprehend that she was more sprite than woman. He had had, at times,
flashes of realization; he had seen with his conscience that if a man
fell in love with one of these creatures of the elements, withdrawn
into her life of the mind--if a mere man had plucked a star from the
heavenly host and tried to domesticate it--he must make concessions of
his own nature. Essentially cold and sparkling, starlight was not for
the common terrestrial day. He had confused his metaphors: it was lucky
that Eva had not heard.
I rose. “We are all as selfish as we can be,” I told him. “I’m so
selfish that, even after your appeal, I still refuse absolutely to go
with Eva this summer. And, if you are looking for a reason, what you’ve
just said will provide you with one. Eva, without meaning to do so,
tries that out on everyone.”
She came through the archway from beyond the hall of the typewriters.
She was breathing rapidly, and her step was hurried and irregular. She
said at once: “I forgot all about having asked you to come, Dinah. And
I’m not in the mood to talk. Do you mind if we put it off? Come on: I
feel like getting out of sight of this place.”
Fifth Avenue displayed the discreet gaiety of late afternoon. Florists
offered window displays of odd and prankish blossoms. “Goodbye,” I said
gladly.
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