And so with long pauses, that his shocked mind might grasp it, he told
him the whole sad truth.
And still Philippa neither moved nor spoke. Almost as if in a trance
she watched these two, who seemed to belong to a world in which she had
no part--grey-haired man and grey-haired woman clasping hands across a
gulf of years.
"I sent for you," he said presently, "because I knew you would not lie
to me, and that if I saw you--and I was not mad--that you would be
older. If all those years had passed Phil could not be still almost a
child. I tried to reason it out while I was waiting for you to come.
So that was why Phil never came. My little Phil! I cannot think of
her as dead," he whispered brokenly, "and all our joy in being together
again was nothing but a mistake--a dream. She is not here!" He
repeated the words as though he could hardly grasp their meaning; then
his voice changed as he cried, "Why did they not tell me the truth?
Why did they let me believe that it was Phil?"
"You were not strong enough."
"Not strong enough to know the truth, but only to be deceived," he said
bitterly. "And I did not know! I thought--blind fool!--that it was
Phil! Oh, I was easily duped."
"Don't say that," said Isabella quickly. "I know it must seem like
deception; but, Francis--don't you see--you had waited so long for
Phil--you had never ceased to look for her coming--you could not
understand that she was dead; and when you saw Philippa it was you who
accepted her as Phil. And you were so content, so happy, that it was
impossible to tell you the truth. It would have killed you."
"There are worse things than death," he answered slowly. "It would
have been better to die--to go to her--than live to know that all one's
joy was false, and all one's hopes a delusion. They are all gone,
Isabella--Phil, mother, Jim--all gone; and only you and I are left, and
we--are old, Isabella--you and I."
"Not old," she replied, with a touch of her whimsical humour, "not old;
but getting on that way, Francis."
A little wintry smile flickered for an instant across his wan face.
"You have not changed--your voice is just the same. Oh, how it makes
me remember! We were good comrades, Isabella, you and I."
"We were, and are still," she answered huskily, "and shall be to the
end."
He nodded. "To the end."
Hand in hand they sat as the daylight faded in the quiet room,
seemingly oblivious of the presence of the watcher, who stood
immovable, as if turned to stone, beside the door. Now and again
Francis would ask a question and Isabella would answer, but for the
most part they were silent. Words were of no avail to help him--they
could not reconstruct his shattered world or bring back those he had
loved and lost. And it was too soon for her to urge him to take
courage, or to tell him that perhaps his happiness of the last few
weeks might prove to have been something more than a dream.
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