Petrovitsch ate with a good appetite, and pressed Lenz to do the same;
he was too intent upon what went on in the adjoining room, however, to
swallow a morsel. The child talked in its sleep, an unintelligible
murmur, that seemed their one connecting link with the world of nature.
It chilled their hearts to hear the unconscious little thing laugh in
its dreams. Annele breathed quietly. Lenz went in to take the child,
but started back with a cry of horror, for he had seized Bubby instead,
and the dog snapped at him. His cry awoke Annele, who, sitting up in
bed, called him and Petrovitsch to her. "Thank God, I am still alive,
if it be but for one hour! I pray forgiveness of all; chiefly of you,
Lenz."
"Don't try to talk now," he interposed. "Will you not swallow
something? I have found the coffee, but not the mill; if the child is
awake I will pound it up. There is nice ham here too."
"I want nothing; let me speak. What happened? What made you scream,
Lenz?"
"Nothing; I only took hold of the dog instead of the child, and he
snapped at me; in my excitement he seemed a monster seeking to devour
me."
"Yes, yes; this distraction," said Annele; "this distraction that I
have made! O Lenz, my dream has come to pass as you described. Last
night I stood before an open grave and looked down into its dark
depths. Little clods of earth kept rolling into it, and I tried to hold
myself back, but could not; I began falling, falling; some power drew
me down. Hold me! There, there, now it is over; it is passed now. Lay
your hand upon my face; so. O gracious God! that you all should have to
die with me! that all this should have come upon you for my sins! I
have deserved it! but you and my child! and oh, my William; my poor
William! You looked at me so pitifully when you went away, and said, 'I
will bring you something good when I come back, mother.' You must bring
me something good in heaven. Be true and good and--"
Tears choked her voice; she grasped Lenz's hand and held it to her
face. "An hour ago I had gladly died; now I long to live, to have one
more chance of showing in this world that I can be true and loving. I
see now what a woman I have been. Henceforth I will pray for a kind
look and word. O God, save us, but for one hour, for one day! I will
send for Franzl, Lenz; that was the beginning of my evil-doing."
"I really believe now that the devil is driven out," said Petrovitsch;
"your thinking of Franzl, and wanting to show kindness to one whose
life you have imbittered, is a sure sign. There is my hand; now all is
well."
Lenz could speak no word. He hurried to the sitting-room, and bringing
what was left of the brandy his uncle had mixed, put it to Annele's
lips, saying: "Drink, and for every drop you swallow I would gladly
give you a thousand blissful words! Drink more, drink it all!" he
continued, as Annele set down the glass. "And then lie still and don't
speak another word."
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