But this visit to the University city was productive of the most
intense chagrin in other ways to Charles Raynor; of the keenest
humiliation. "Only a short while ago, I was one of _them_, with the
world all before me to hold my head up in!" he kept telling himself,
as he watched the undergraduates passing in the street, holding aloof
from them, for he had not the courage to show his face. If by
unavoidable chance he encountered one or two, he drew away as quickly
as he could, after exchanging a few uncomfortable sentences. Whilst
they, knowing his changed circumstances, his blighted prospects, made
no effort to detain him; and if their manner displayed a certain
restraint, springing from innate pity, or delicacy of feeling, Charles
put it down to a very different cause, and felt all the deeper
mortification.
As he left Oxford by an early morning train on his way home, his
thoughts were busy with what had passed. For one thing, he found that
his days of torment at Eagles' Nest, when he went about in fear of
writs and arrest, had been without foundation. With the exception of
Mr. Huddles--and that was much later--not a single creditor, as all
assured him, had followed him there: neither had any of them written
to him, excepting the one whose letter had by misadventure fallen into
the hands of Major Raynor. Who then was the Tiger, Charles asked
himself. Could it be that, after all, the man had positively held no
mission that concerned him? It might be so: and that Charles had
dreaded and hated him for nothing. The Tiger had left Grassmere now,
as Charles happened to know. Jetty had said so the other day when he
was at Eagles' Nest. To return sometime Jetty believed, for the
gentleman had said as much to his sister Esther when leaving: he liked
the lodgings and liked the place, and should no doubt visit them
again.
And so, Charles Raynor returned home, relieved on the whole, in spite
of his ever-present trouble, and with a lively feeling of gratitude to
Frank Raynor in his heart.
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