Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
He did not speak, though he shivered from head to foot as there came
over him a dim foreshadowing of what Edith meant to do and what he must
not prevent her doing. He saw the right as clearly as she did, and knew
that were he in her place he should do the same; but the flesh was very
weak, and he staggered, and grew faint and sick as he thought of letting
the whole world know who his Edith was, and how he had been deceived. If
the child was found and acknowledged all this must be, unless indeed
they both might think it best to keep it still a secret. They could care
for the girl just the same, adopt her, perhaps, and never let her nor
any one know just what she was to them. Edith certainly would concede so
much to his feelings. She would not thrust this great humiliation upon
him in the face of all the world. And if they never found the girl,—but
he dared not allow himself to consider that possibility for a moment.
Something told him they would find her, and he caught himself wondering
how she looked, if she was at all like her mother; or had she lived so
long with the people in Dorset Street that every vestige of grace and
beauty and refinement had been destroyed, and she was like her aunt,
Jenny Nesbit, in far-off Alnwick, with her bare arms and dreadful slang.
How he dreaded her, and how his heart beat with shame at the thought of
bringing her there as an associate for his wife and Gertie! Oh, if she
could prove to be like Gertie, he thought; but she would not, and never
in all his life had he shrunk from a living thing as he shrunk from that
unknown step-daughter of whose existence he had never dreamed until
within the last few minutes.
“Howard!” Edith said at last, but he did not answer. “Howard,” she said
again, “now that you know the whole you will love me still?”
“Yes, Edith,” he said; and she continued, “And you will help me find her
just as soon as I am able to cross the sea. Will it be in a week, do you
think, or two? I am a great deal better than I was yesterday, and now
that you know it I shall get well so fast. Do you think we can start in
a week?”
“No, Edith, I know you cannot. A sea voyage in the winter is always
rough, and you could not bear it yet,” was his reply, and Edith
assented, and thought how hard she would try to get well so as to go on
that strange errand of hunting up a child lost almost nineteen years.
Anon there crept into her mind a suspicion of what it would be to her
husband to have the story known, and she said to him pityingly:
“Howard, I am sorry for you. It will be so hard for you to have the
people know.”
“Yes, Edith, very hard at first; but you surely need not say anything
until you know whether you find her,” the colonel replied, and Edith
acquiesced, and longed for the time when she should be able to endure
the excitement and fatigue of the voyage and the search, and the
finding-perhaps of the object sought.
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