Edna Browning; $b or, the Leighton homestead. A novelHolmes, Mary Jane
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Edna Browning; $b or, the Leighton homestead. A novel
Holmes, Mary Jane
American fiction -- 19th century
For a moment Georgie sat perfectly silent, looking at him with an
expression of perfect happiness beaming in her eyes, and showing itself
in every feature of her face; then gradually the expression changed, and
was succeeded by one of terror and remorse, and the dark eyes turned
away from Roy, and seemed to be looking far away at something which made
them terrible while that fixed, stony gaze lasted. Wondering greatly at
her manner, Roy said, “Georgie, won’t you answer me?”
And this time he passed his arm around her, but she writhed herself from
his embrace, and putting out both hands, said impetuously.
“Don’t, Roy; don’t touch me; don’t say the words again to me; take them
back, please, lest it prove a greater temptation than I can bear, for,
Roy, oh, Roy, I do—I do love you, and if I could I would so gladly live
with you always; but—but—I can’t,—I can’t. I am—I was—oh, Roy, take the
words back before I go quite mad.”
He almost thought her mad now, and came a little nearer to her, asking
what she meant, and why, if she loved him as she had said, his asking
her to marry him should affect her so. And while he said this to her she
began to recover her composure, and to be more like herself. The good
impulse which had counselled her not to deceive Roy Leighton, and impose
herself upon him without a confession of the past, was subsiding; and
though there still were bitter pangs of remorse and terrible regrets for
the past, she began to feel that she could not lose what she had desired
so long, and to Roy’s questionings, she answered: “I am not so good as
you think me. I am not worthy of you. I am—you don’t know how bad I am.
You would hate me if you did.”
She was growing excited again. All the good there was in the woman was
asserting itself in Roy’s behalf, and she continued:
“Everybody would hate me as I hate myself always.”
He took a step backward as if she really were the creature she professed
to be; but _now_ it was her hand which was reached out to _him_. She
could not let him go, and she gasped,—
“But Roy, with you, who are so noble and good, I could learn to be
better, and I will. I swear it here, that if you make me your wife, I
will be true and faithful, and do my best to make you happy. Try me and
see if I don’t.”
Perplexed and bewildered with what he had seen and heard, and half
inclined already to be sorry, Roy was still too honorable to draw back,
and when she said so piteously, “Try me, Roy, and see if I don’t,” he
took her offered hand and pressed it between his own, and answered her:
“I know you will, Georgie. We all have faults, and you must make
allowances for mine, as I will for yours, which, I am sure you overrate,
or else I have strangely misjudged you. Why, Georgie, you would almost
make one believe you had been guilty of some dreadful thing, you accuse
yourself so unmercifully.”
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