Edna Browning; $b or, the Leighton homestead. A novelHolmes, Mary Jane
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Edna Browning; $b or, the Leighton homestead. A novel
Holmes, Mary Jane
American fiction -- 19th century
“Let me tell you while I can,” she whispered; “tell you what I want you
to do. He told me of a _Janet_ over in Scotland waiting for him, and a
little blind boy whose sight he hoped to have restored, now he had the
means. Find them, Jack, they live in ——, not far over the border. When
you and Maude are married, go there on your bridal trip. I have money of
my own,—ten thousand dollars, which Aunt Burton gave me. It is all in
bonds. I shall give it to you, and a part of it you must give to her, to
Janet and her little ones. That is something I can do, and it will make
me die easier, knowing somebody will be benefited by me. Promise, Jack,
to find her, or get the money to her in some way, but never let her know
she was _not_ his wife. Tell her his friends sent you.”
She could talk no longer then, for her speech was failing her, and her
utterance so thick that it was with difficulty Jack could understand
her. He made it out, however, and promising compliance with all she
asked, soothed and quieted her until she fell into a sleep, which lasted
several hours, and from which she awoke with a fresher, better look upon
her face and in her eyes. But this did not deceive her, nor delude her
with vain hopes. She knew that life was not for her, neither did she
desire it now. Hoping and believing, though tremblingly, that all would
be well with her hereafter; that the God against whom she had sinned so
deeply had, in His infinite mercy, pardoned even her; she looked forward
calmly, and even longingly, to the death which was to free her from all
the bitter pangs of remorse which, should she live, would be hers to
endure continually. The sight of Roy and her aunt was a constant pain
and reproach, for she knew how unworthy she was of the fond love
manifested for her by the one, and the extreme kindness and delicate
attentions of the other.
“If I could tell them,—but I cannot, and Jack says I need not,” she
thought often to herself, praying earnestly to be guided aright, and not
to be allowed to leave undone anything necessary to her own salvation.
Once when Roy was sitting by her, she said to him hesitatingly:
“Roy, you are a good man, one in whom I have confidence; tell me,
please, if a person has done something very wrong, ought he to confess
it to everybody or anybody, unless by so doing he could do some good, or
repair an injury?”
Roy did not think it necessary, he said, though he was not quite sure
that he fully understood the case. There were great sweat-drops on
Georgie’s face, and her lips twitched convulsively as she said:
“There was something in my early life which I meant to keep from you and
which I want to keep from you now. It would distress me greatly to tell
it, and pain and shock you to hear it. Do you think I must? that is,
will God love me more if I tell?”
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