Home to the chosen ones, who here
Served their Lord faithfully and well,
Who died in peace without a fear,
And there in peace for ever dwell;
The Everlasting is their joy and stay,
The Eternal Word Himself to them doth say
Be thou content!
PAUL GERHARDT, 1670.
For weeks together during her illness Bessie was at times unable to
sleep during the night. She was too considerate to her nurses to disturb
them for mere sleeplessness. She would then, as we have said, recall to
memory music and books which she had heard, and at these times
Shakespeare and Sir Walter Scott were a great resource to her. The
characters she admired lived for her, and she would try to picture to
herself how they would act in circumstances which she invented for them.
Her knowledge of English history was also a source of interest, and
often astonished those around her. One evening in 1884 a young niece
preparing for an examination asked in vain for information as to the
"Salisbury Assize" until the question was put to "Aunt Bessie," who at
once explained it.
There were long lapses, as it were, in her life. After the sleepless
nights she had to sleep when she could, and her room in the daytime was
hushed and silent, all external life and interest excluded. At night she
was again fully awake, but it was to find herself alone in the "chambers
of her imagery."
One of the two sisters who were her constant companions, and nursed her
with unfailing devotion for fifteen years, writes as follows:
All through her illness, with the occasional exceptions when she
suffered from deafness, her cheerfulness was marvellous, her
patience never-failing, and her consideration and thoughtfulness
for those around her very wonderful and touching.
She had a special name of her own for each of her nurses, all of
them loved her, and upon several of them the influence of her
patience and goodness was strongly marked, and will be of lifelong
endurance. Her first sick-nurse came in 1872 and stayed two years.
She often afterwards visited her. She came to see us after Bessie's
death, and said with tears, "Oh, I did not do enough for her. I
wish I had done more."
Bessie would often arrange little surprises and pleasures for us
and give us flowers. She was anxious we should have all the variety
we could, and took the greatest pleasure in hearing an account of
what we had seen and done whilst away from her. She liked to see
visitors when she was well enough, but was often nervous about it,
fearing lest the excitement should do her harm, and interfere in
any way with what little she could do for the Institution.
Perhaps few realised how much she suffered; she was so patient, so
bright, so sympathetic that it was difficult to do so. The last few
months of her life were full of pain.
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