He took the old Doctor as his adviser. The shrewd old man listened to
the father's story, his explanations of possibilities, of probabilities,
of dangers, of hopes. When he had got through, the Doctor looked him in
the face steadily, as if he were saying, Is that all?
The father's eyes fell. This was not all. There was something at the
bottom of his soul which he could not bear to speak of,--nay, which,
as often as it reared itself through the dark waves of unworded
consciousness into the breathing air of thought, he trod down as the
ruined angels tread down a lost soul, trying to come up out of the
seething sea of torture. Only this one daughter! No! God never would
have ordained such a thing. There was nothing ever heard of like it; it
could not be; she was ill,--she would outgrow all these singularities;
he had had an aunt who was peculiar; he had heard that hysteric girls
showed the strangest forms of moral obliquity for a time, but came right
at last. She would change all at once, when her health got more firmly
settled in the course of her growth. Are there not rough buds that open
into sweet flowers? Are there not fruits, which, while unripe, are
not to be tasted or endured, which mature into the richest taste and
fragrance? In God's good time she would come to her true nature; her
eyes would lose that frightful, cold glitter; her lips would not feel so
cold when she pressed them against his cheek; and that faint birth-mark,
her mother swooned when she first saw, would fade wholly out,--it was
less marked, surely, now than it used to be!
So Dudley Venner felt, and would have thought, if he had let his
thoughts breathe the air of his soul. But the Doctor read through words
and thoughts and all into the father's consciousness. There are states
of mind which may be shared by two persons in presence of each other,
which remain not only unworded, but unthoughted, if such a word may
be coined for our special need. Such a mutually interpenetrative
consciousness there was between the father and the old physician. By a
common impulse, both of them rose in a mechanical way and went to the
western window, where each started, as he saw the other's look directed
towards the white stone which stood in the midst of the small plot of
green turf.
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