“In mourning, my own dear. No great depths of crape, but simple and
scrupulous black. She had in her bonnet three small black feathers.
She carried a little muff of astrachan. She has near the left eye,” he
continued, “a tiny vertical scar--”
I stopped him short. “The mark of a caress from her husband.” Then I
added: “How close you must have been to her!” He made no answer to this,
and I thought he blushed, observing which I broke straight off. “Well,
goodbye.”
“You won’t stay a little?” He came to me again tenderly, and this time
I suffered him. “Her visit had its beauty,” he murmured as he held me,
“but yours has a greater one.”
I let him kiss me, but I remembered, as I had remembered the day before,
that the last kiss she had given, as I supposed, in this world had been
for the lips he touched.
“I’m life, you see,” I answered. “What you saw last night was death.”
“It was life--it was life!”
He spoke with a kind of soft stubbornness, and I disengaged myself. We
stood looking at each other hard.
“You describe the scene--so far as you describe it at all--in terms that
are incomprehensible. She was in the room before you knew it?”
“I looked up from my letter-writing--at that table under the lamp, I had
been wholly absorbed in it--and she stood before me.”
“Then what did you do?”
“I sprang up with an ejaculation, and she, with a smile, laid her
finger, ever so warningly, yet with a sort of delicate dignity, to her
lips. I knew it meant silence, but the strange thing was that it seemed
immediately to explain and to justify her. We, at any rate, stood for
a time that, as I’ve told you, I can’t calculate, face to face. It was
just as you and I stand now.”
“Simply staring?”
He impatiently protested. “Ah! _we’re_ not staring!”
“Yes, but we’re talking.”
“Well, _we_ were--after a fashion.” He lost himself in the memory of it.
“It was as friendly as this.” I had it on my tongue’s end to ask if
that were saying much for it, but I remarked instead that what they had
evidently done was to gaze in mutual admiration. Then I inquired whether
his recognition of her had been immediate. “Not quite,” he replied,
“for, of course, I didn’t expect her; but it came to me long before she
went who she was--who she could only be.”
I thought a little. “And how did she at last go?”
“Just as she arrived. The door was open behind her, and she passed out.”
“Was she rapid--slow?”
“Rather quick. But looking behind her,” he added, with a smile. “I let
her go, for I perfectly understood that I was to take it as she wished.”
I was conscious of exhaling a long, vague sigh. “Well, you must take it
now as _I_ wish--you must let _me_ go.”
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