I remember that on my asking some
one why such an idiotic thing had been said my interlocutor replied:
“Oh, because, you know, it’s just the way he _would_ have written!” My
spirit sank a little perhaps as I reflected that with such analogies in
our manner there might prove to be some in our fate.
It was during the next four or five years that our eyes were open to
what, unless something could be done, that fate, at least on Limbert’s
part, might be. The thing to be done was of course to write the book,
the book that would make the difference, really justify the burden he
had accepted and consummately express his power. For the works that
followed upon _The Major Key_ he had inevitably to accept conditions the
reverse of brilliant, at a time too when the strain upon his resources
had begun to show sharpness. With three babies in due course, an ailing
wife and a complication still greater than these, it became highly
important that a man should do only his best. Whatever Limbert did was
his best; so at least each time I thought and so I unfailingly said
somewhere, though it was not my saying it, heaven knows, that made the
desired difference. Every one else indeed said it, and there was among
multiplied worries always the comfort that his position was quite
assured. The two books that followed _The Major Key_ did more than
anything else to assure it, and Jane Highmore was always crying out:
“You stand alone, dear Ray; you stand absolutely alone!” Dear Ray
used to tell me that he felt the truth of this in feebly attempted
discussions with his bookseller. His sister-in-law gave him good advice
into the bargain; she was a repository of knowing hints, of esoteric
learning. These things were doubtless not the less valuable to him
for bearing wholly on the question of how a reputation might be with
a little gumption, as Mrs. Highmore said, “worked.” Save when she
occasionally bore testimony to her desire to do, as Limbert did,
something some day for her own very self, I never heard her speak of the
literary motive as if it were distinguishable from the pecuniary. She
cocked up his hat, she pricked up his prudence for him, reminding him
that as one seemed to take one’s self so the silly world was ready to
take one. It was a fatal mistake to be too candid even with those who
were all right--not to look and to talk prosperous, not at least to
pretend that one had beautiful sales. To listen to her you would have
thought the profession of letters a wonderful game of bluff. Wherever
one’s idea began it ended somehow in inspired paragraphs in the
newspapers. “_I_ pretend, I assure you, that you are going off like
wildfire--I can at least do that for you!” she often declared, prevented
as she was from doing much else by Mr. Highmore’s insurmountable
objection to _their_ taking Mrs. Stannace.
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