England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
Suddenly she sat up. Then she became aware of her own immediate
condition. She felt the blankets about her, she knew her own limbs. For
a moment it seemed as if her reason were going. She looked round, with
wild eye, as if seeking something. He stood still with fear. She saw
her clothing lying scattered.
“Who undressed me?” she asked, her eyes resting full and inevitable on
his face.
“I did,” he replied, “to bring you round.”
For some moments she sat and gazed at him awfully, her lips parted.
“Do you love me then?” she asked.
He only stood and stared at her, fascinated. His soul seemed to melt.
She shuffled forward on her knees, and put her arms round him, round
his legs, as he stood there, pressing her breasts against his knees and
thighs, clutching him with strange, convulsive certainty, pressing his
thighs against her, drawing him to her face, her throat, as she looked
up at him with flaring, humble eyes, of transfiguration, triumphant in
first possession.
“You love me,” she murmured, in strange transport, yearning and
triumphant and confident. “You love me. I know you love me, I know.”
And she was passionately kissing his knees, through the wet clothing,
passionately and indiscriminately kissing his knees, his legs, as if
unaware of everything.
He looked down at the tangled wet hair, the wild, bare, animal
shoulders. He was amazed, bewildered, and afraid. He had never thought
of loving her. He had never wanted to love her. When he rescued her and
restored her, he was a doctor, and she was a patient. He had had no
single personal thought of her. Nay, this introduction of the personal
element was very distasteful to him, a violation of his professional
honour. It was horrible to have her there embracing his knees. It was
horrible. He revolted from it, violently. And yet—and yet—he had not
the power to break away.
She looked at him again, with the same supplication of powerful love,
and that same transcendent, frightening light of triumph. In view of
the delicate flame which seemed to come from her face like a light, he
was powerless. And yet he had never intended to love her. He had never
intended. And something stubborn in him could not give way.
“You love me,” she repeated, in a murmur of deep, rhapsodic assurance.
“You love me.”
Her hands were drawing him, drawing him down to her. He was afraid,
even a little horrified. For he had, really, no intention of loving
her. Yet her hands were drawing him towards her. He put out his hand
quickly to steady himself, and grasped her bare shoulder. A flame
seemed to burn the hand that grasped her soft shoulder. He had no
intention of loving her: his whole will was against his yielding. It
was horrible. And yet wonderful was the touch of her shoulders,
beautiful the shining of her face. Was she perhaps mad? He had a horror
of yielding to her. Yet something in him ached also.
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