England, My EnglandLawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
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England, My England
Lawrence, D. H. (David Herbert)
England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Short stories, English
“Oh, well,” she said. “Matilda—don’t bother. Let him have everything,
we can look after ourselves.”
“I know he’ll take everything,” said Matilda, abstractedly.
Hadrian did not answer. He knew in fact that if Matilda refused him he
would take everything, and go off with it.
“A clever little mannie—!” said Emmie, with a jeering grimace.
The father laughed noiselessly to himself. But he was tired....
“Go on, then,” he said. “Go on, let me be quiet.”
Emmie turned and looked at him.
“You deserve what you’ve got,” she said to her father bluntly.
“Go on,” he answered mildly. “Go on.”
Another night passed—a night nurse sat up with Mr. Rockley. Another day
came. Hadrian was there as ever, in his woollen jersey and coarse khaki
trousers and bare neck. Matilda went about, frail and distant, Emmie
black-browed in spite of her blondness. They were all quiet, for they
did not intend the mystified servant to learn anything.
Mr. Rockley had very bad attacks of pain, he could not breathe. The end
seemed near. They all went about quiet and stoical, all unyielding.
Hadrian pondered within himself. If he did not marry Matilda he would
go to Canada with twenty thousand pounds. This was itself a very
satisfactory prospect. If Matilda consented he would have nothing—she
would have her own money.
Emmie was the one to act. She went off in search of the solicitor and
brought him with her. There was an interview, and Whittle tried to
frighten the youth into withdrawal—but without avail. The clergyman and
relatives were summoned—but Hadrian stared at them and took no notice.
It made him angry, however.
He wanted to catch Matilda alone. Many days went by, and he was not
successful: she avoided him. At last, lurking, he surprised her one day
as she came to pick gooseberries, and he cut off her retreat. He came
to the point at once.
“You don’t want me, then?” he said, in his subtle, insinuating voice.
“I don’t want to speak to you,” she said, averting her face.
“You put your hand on me, though,” he said. “You shouldn’t have done
that, and then I should never have thought of it. You shouldn’t have
touched me.”
“If you were anything decent, you’d know that was a mistake, and forget
it,” she said.
“I know it was a mistake—but I shan’t forget it. If you wake a man up,
he can’t go to sleep again because he’s told to.”
“If you had any decent feeling in you, you’d have gone away,” she
replied.
“I didn’t want to,” he replied.
She looked away into the distance. At last she asked:
“What do you persecute me for, if it isn’t for the money. I’m old
enough to be your mother. In a way I’ve been your mother.”
“Doesn’t matter,” he said. “You’ve been no mother to me. Let us marry
and go out to Canada—you might as well—you’ve touched me.”
She was white and trembling. Suddenly she flushed with anger.
“It’s so _indecent_,” she said.
“How?” he retorted. “You touched me.”
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