[1298] _Ib._ p. 63. _Gesta Hen._ as above. [1299] _Gesta Hen._ as above, pp. 70, 71. [1300] Gir. Cambr. _De Instr. Princ._, dist. iii. c. 26 (Angl. Christ. Soc., pp. 149, 150). One thing alone Henry asked and obtained in return for all this humiliation; a written list of those among his subjects whose services were transferred to Richard.[1301] The list was promised,[1302] and Henry was carried back, worn out with fatigue, suffering and shame, to the favourite home of his brighter days at Chinon.[1303] By the time he reached it he was too ill to do anything but lie down never to rise again. He sent back his vice-chancellor, Roger Malchat,[1304] to fetch the promised list of traitors; and on Roger’s return he bade him sit down beside his bed and read him out the names. With a sigh Roger answered: “Our Lord Jesus Christ help me, sire! the first written down here is Count John, your son.”[1305] The words gave Henry his death-blow. “Say no more,”[1306] he faltered, turning away his face.[1307] Yet the tale seemed too horrible to be true, and he started up again: “Can it be? John, my darling child, my very heart, for love of whom I have incurred all this misery--has he indeed forsaken me?” It could not be denied; he sank back again and turned his face to the wall, moaning: “Let things go now as they will; I care no more for myself or for the world.”[1308] [1301] Rog. Howden (Stubbs), vol. ii. p. 366. _Hist. de Guill. le Mar._, v. 9035 (_Romania_, vol. xi. p. 65). [1302] Rog. Howden says that it was given, and implies that it was read, then and there, but we shall see that he is wrong. [1303] Rog. Howden as above. _Hist. de Guill. le Mar._, v. 3639 (as above). Bishop Stubbs (_Rog. Howden_, vol. ii. pref. p. lxviii) says “he returned to Azai,” and makes the reading of the fatal list take place there, before Henry went on to Chinon (_ib._ p. lxx). This seems to be the meaning of Gir. Cambr. _De Instr. Princ._, dist. iii. c. 25 (Angl. Christ. Soc., p. 148). But Gerald evidently thought Henry had been at Azay ever since the Friday, just as William of Armorica (_Philipp._, l. iii., Duchesne, _Hist. Franc. Scriptt._, vol. v. p. 134) thought he had been all the while at Chinon; whereas the _Gesta_ and Roger shew that both are wrong in this. On the other hand, the _Life of William the Marshal_ seems distinctly to shew that the place where Henry went to lodge before the meeting at Colombières was not Azay, but Ballan; and it also tells us that he went straight back from Colombières to Chinon, and _there_ read the list. In the absence of further elucidations, I venture to follow this version. [1304] “... Mestre Roger Malchael, Qui lores portout son seel.”