“Yes, ... too difficult ... because I don’t believe in such a part--or
in such a character.”
He sat thunderstruck. Then he flushed to the temples and the last
rag of masculine condescension fell from him, leaving him boyishly
bewildered and chagrined.
“Do you mean that you don’t _like_ the story?” he asked incredulously.
“I like the way you wrote it. But my opinion is of no value. Everybody
says it is a great novel. Betsy told me that the whole country is madly
discussing it. Everybody who can judge such things knows that it is a
very wonderful book. So does it matter what I think----”
“It does, to _me_,” he said almost savagely. “Why don’t you like it,
Eris?”
She was silent, and his tone changed: “Won’t you tell me why?” he
pleaded.
Again the order reversed--the eternal cry of Eris on _his_ lips,
now,--he, her court of appeal, appealing to her,--in mortified quest
of knowledge,--of truth, perhaps,--or, astonished, wounded in snobbery
and pride, seeking some remedy for the surprising hurt--some shred of
his former authority to guide her back into the attitude which now he
realised had meant so much to unconscious snobbery and happy vanity.
And now Eris knew that their hour for understanding had arrived. She
had much to say to him. Her clasped hands tightened nervously in her
lap but the level eyes were steady.
She said, very slowly: “I have known unhappiness, Mr. Annan. And
ugliness. And hardship. But I’d be ashamed to let my mind dwell
upon these things.... Stories where life begins without hope and
continues hopelessly, seem needless and more or less distorted. And
rather cowardly.... One’s mind dwells most constantly on what one
likes.... I do not like deformity. Also, it is not the rule; it is
the exception.... So is ugliness. And evil. A little seasons art
sufficiently.... Only beasts eat garlic wholesale.... Those who find
perpetual interest in misshapen minds and bodies and souls are either
physicians or are themselves in some manner misshapen.... Unhappiness,
ugliness, squalor, misery, evil,--in the midst of these, or of the
even more terrible isolation of the lonely mind,--always one can
summon courage to dream nobly.... And what one dares dream one can
become,--inwardly always,--often outwardly and actually.”
She lifted her deep, grey eyes to his reddened face.
“I do admire you, and your mind, and your skill in attainment. But I
have not been able to comprehend the greatness of what you write, and
what all acclaim.... I do not like it. I cannot.
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