“I suppose,” he said carelessly, “a fellow is able to diagnose the
thing if he gets it.... Recognise it.... Don’t you?”
“Probably.”
“I suppose every fellow stands a chance of landing there sooner or
later.”
“You write about it. Don’t you know?”
“Certainly.... I’m familiar with some phases of it.... The phenomena
are well known.”
“The various sorts of love and its aftermath that you write about are
enough to scare any man off that stuff,” remarked Coltfoot.
“Those are the sorts I’ve seen.... Or the cut and dried hypocrisy of my
own kind and kindred.... I’ve seen darned few cases of satisfactory and
enduring love.... Darned few, Mike.”
“Then there are a few?”
“Sure.”
“Why not write about one such incident?”
After a silence Annan lifted his eyes and gave him a haggard look.
“I’m afraid of Christmas-card stuff, I guess.... Mike, I’ve always been
afraid of it. I’ve had a morbid fear of weakness.... And do you know I
believe _that_ was the real weakness? I _am_ weak!”
“Barry, you’ve merely had things come to you too easily. You’ve had
your own way too much. You’re persuasive; you get it. You’ve been,
perhaps, a little self-complacent, a bit smug, a trifle cocksure....
All strength is in danger of such phases. But weakness never is.
Weakness _must_ assert itself or silently acquiesce in its own visible
inferiority. For the bragger is the weakling, not he who does not need
to assert himself.
“And always there lies a danger in the reticence of strength that,
unawares, complacency and self-satisfaction may taint it, and strength
go stale.”
After a silence: “My stuff has been pretty narrow, I guess,” muttered
Annan.
“Narrow calibre, perhaps; but powerful. You can shoot a bigger gun and
bigger projectile, Barry. I don’t know what your limits may be, but I
know they’re wide--if you care to range them.”
“That’s nice of you, Mike.... I guess I’ll feel like working ... pretty
soon.... As for falling in love, ... I suppose I’ll know it if I do....
Don’t you think so?”
Coltfoot took his hat and stick:
“I’m not sure. I don’t believe the thing conforms always to specific
gravity or Troy weight or carats or decimals. I don’t believe that a
standard test will always give the same reaction.” He scowled: “I don’t
believe there’s such a thing as love in elemental supply. I think it’s
always found in combination--endless combinations.... And how the hell
you’re to recognise it, candidly, I don’t know.”
“Stay to dinner; will you, Mike?”
“Sorry.... By the way, how is your little waif, the Goddess of Discord,
getting on with Smull?”
“All right, I fancy.”
“Don’t you see her?”
“I haven’t lately.”
“Well, the gossip is that she’s sure fire. Frank Donnell believes in
her. I’ve heard that Smull is crazy about her and stands to back her to
the limit.... I’m sorry--rather.”
“About what?” asked Annan sharply.
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