England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Governesses -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"Hallo, sonny, what's up now?" asked Allan, in a comical voice, lifting
up Dot's tear-stained face for a nearer inspection.
"Oh, she is like me," gasped Dot; "she has those horrid things, you
know; and it's too bad, it's too bad!" he finished, with another
choking sob.
"Nonsense," returned Allan, with sturdy cheerfulness; "she won't use
them always, you silly boy."
"Not always!" returned Dot, with a woe-begone, puckered-up face.
"Of course not, you little goose--or gander, I mean; she may have to
hobble about on them for a year or two, perhaps longer; but Uncle Geoff
and I mean to set her all right again--don't we, Carrie?" Carrie's
answer was a dubious smile. She did not believe in her own recovery;
but to Dot, Allan's words were full of complete comfort.
"Oh, I am so glad, I am so glad!" cried the unselfish little creature.
"I don't mind a bit for myself; I shouldn't be Dot without my sticks,
but it seemed so dreadful for poor Carrie."
And then, as she kissed him, with tears in her eyes, he whispered "that
she was not to mind, for Allan would soon make her all right: he always
did."
Carrie tried to be cheerful that evening, but it cost her a great
effort. It was hard returning to everyday life, without strength or
capacity for its duties, with no bright prospect dawning in the future,
only a long, gray horizon of present monotony and suffering. But here
the consolation of the Gospel came to her help; the severe test of her
faith proved its reality; and her submission and total abnegation of
will brought her the truest comfort in her hour of need.
Looking back on this part of our lives, I believe Carrie needed just
this discipline; like many other earnest workers she made an idol of
her work. It cost her months of suffering before she realized that God
does not always need our work; that a chastened will is more acceptable
to Him than the labor we think so all-sufficient. Sad lesson to poor
human pride, that believes so much in its own efforts, and yet that
many a one laid by in the vigor of life and work, has to learn so
painfully. Oh, hardest of all work, to do nothing while others toil
round us, to wait and look on, knowing God's ways are not our ways,
that the patient endurance of helplessness is the duty ordained for us!
Carrie had to undergo another ordeal the following day, for she was
just settled on her couch when Mrs. Smedley entered unannounced.
I had never liked Mrs. Smedley; indeed, at one time I was very near
hating her; but I could not help feeling sorry for the woman when I saw
how her face twitched and worked at the sight of her favorite.
Carrie's altered looks must have touched her conscience. Carrie was a
little nervous, but she soon recovered herself.
"You must not be sorry for me," she said, taking her hand, for actually
Mrs. Smedley could hardly speak; tears stood in her hard eyes, and then
she motioned to me to leave them together.
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