England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Governesses -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"Now you are angry without cause," she returned, gently, for Carrie
rarely lost her temper in an argument; she was so meekly obstinate that
we could do nothing with her. "We cannot create our own world, Esther;
we can only do the best we can with this. When I am working so hard to
do a little good in Milnthorpe, why do you all try to hinder and drag
me back?"
"Because you are _over_doing it, and wearing yourself out," I returned,
determined to have my say; but she stopped me with quiet peremptoriness.
"No more of that, Esther; I have heard it all from Allan. I am not
afraid of wearing out; I hope to die in harness. Why, child, how can
you be so faint-hearted? We cannot die until our time comes."
"But when we court death it is suicide," I answered, stubbornly; but
Carrie only gave one of her sweet little laughs.
"You foolish Esther! who means to die, I should like to know? Why, the
child is actually crying. Listen to me, you dear goosie. I was never so
happy or well in my life." I shook my head sorrowfully, but she
persisted in her statement. "Mrs. Smedley has given me new life. How I
do love that woman! She is a perfect example to us--of unselfishness
and energy. She says I am her right hand, and I do believe she means
it, Esther." But I only groaned in answer. "She is doing a magnificent
work in Milnthrope," she continued, "and I feel so proud that I am
allowed to assist her. Do you know, I had twenty boys in my class this
evening; they would come to me, though Miss Miles' class was nearly
empty." And so she went on, until I felt all over prickles of
suppressed nervousness. "Well, good-night," she said, at last, when I
could not he roused into any semblance of interest; "we shall see which
of us be right by-and-by."
"Yes, we shall see," I answered, drowsily; but long after she left I
muttered the words over and over to myself, "We shall see."
Yes, by-and-by the light of Divine truth would flash over our actions,
and in that pure radiance every unworthy work would wither up to
naught--every unblessed deed retreat into outer darkness. Which would
be right, she or I?
I know only too well that, taking the world as a whole, we ought to
_encourage_ Christian parochial work, because too many girls who
possess the golden opportunity of leisure allow it to be wasted, and so
commit the "sin of omission;" but there would have been quite as much
good done had Carrie dutifully helped in our invalid home and cheered
us all to health by her bright presence. And besides, I myself could
then perhaps have taken a class at me night school if the
stocking-mending and the other multitudinous domestic matters could
have allowed it.
The chimes of St. Barnabas were pealing through the midnight air before
I slept. Above was the soft light of countless stars, sown broadcast
over the dark skies. Christmas was come, and the angel's song sounding
over the sleeping earth.
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