England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Governesses -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"I do not deserve all that, Esther, but you are too young to judge
dispassionately; you must recollect that I have fewer temptations than
other people. If I were strong and well I might be worldly too."
"No, never," I answered indignantly; "you would always be better than
other people, Miss Ruth--you and Carrie--oh, why are you both so good?"
with a despairing inflection in my voice. "How you must both look down
on me."
"I know some one who is good, too," returned Miss Ruth, stroking my
hair. "I know a brave girl who works hard and wears herself out in
loving service, who is often tired and never complains, who thinks
little of herself, and yet who does much to brighten other lives, and I
think you know her too, Esther?" But I would not let her go on; it was
scant goodness to love her, and Allan, and Dot. How could any one do
otherwise? And what merit could there be in that?
But though I disclaimed her praise, I was inwardly rejoiced that she
should think such things of me, and should judge me worthy of her
confidence. She was treating me as though I were her equal and friend,
and, to do her justice the idea of my being a governess never seemed to
enter into hers or Mr. Lucas' head.
They always treated me from this time as a young friend, who conferred
a favor on them by coming. My salary seemed to pass into my hand with
the freedom of a gift. Perhaps it was that Uncle Geoffrey was such an
old and valued friend, and that Miss Ruth knew that in point of birth
the Camerons were far above the Lucases, for we were an old family whom
misfortune had robbed of our honors.
However this may be, my privileges were many, and the yoke of service
lay lightly on my shoulders. Poor Carrie, indeed, had to eat the bitter
bread of dependence, and to take many a severe rebuke from her
employer. Mrs. Thorne was essentially a vulgar-minded woman. She was
affected by the adventitious adjuncts of life; dress, mere station and
wealth weighed largely in her view of things. Because we were poor, she
denied our claim to equality; because Carrie taught her children, she
snubbed and repressed her, to keep her in her place, as though Carrie
were a sort of Jack-in-the-box to be jerked back with every movement.
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