English fiction -- 19th century; Tailors -- Fiction
“He is quite alone. My sisters Harriet and Louisa will not see him, and
I can only do so by stealth. His odd other little friend sometimes
drives me out on Sundays, to a place where I meet him; and the Duke of
Belfield kindly lends me his carriage. Oh, that we might never part! I
am only happy with him!
“Ah, do not doubt him, Juliana, for anything he does! You say, that now
the Duke has obtained for him the Secretaryship to my husband’s
Company, he should not stoop to that other thing, and you do not
understand why. I will tell you. Our poor father died in debt, and Evan
receives money which enables him by degrees to liquidate these debts,
on condition that he consents to be what _I_ dislike as much as you
can. He bears it; you can have no idea of his pride! He is too proud to
own to himself that it debases him—too proud to complain. It is a
tangle—a net that drags him down to it: but whatever he is outwardly,
he is the noblest human being in the world to me, and but for him, oh,
what should I be? Let me beg you to forgive it, if you can. My darling
has no friends. Is his temper as sweet as ever? I can answer that. Yes,
only he is silent, and looks—when you look into his eyes—colder, as men
look when they will not bear much from other men.
“He has not mentioned her name. I am sure she has not written.
“Pity him, and pray for him.”
Juliana then makes a communication, which draws forth the following:—
“Mistress of all the Beckley property—dearest, dearest Juliana! Oh! how
sincerely I congratulate you! The black on the letter alarmed me so, I
could hardly open it, my fingers trembled so; for I esteem you all at
Beckley; but when I had opened and read it, I was recompensed. You say
you are sorry for Rose. But surely what your Grandmama has done is
quite right. It is just, in every sense. But why am I not to tell Evan?
I am certain it would make him very happy, and happiness of any kind he
needs so much! I will obey you, of course, but I cannot see why. Do you
know, my dear child, you are extremely mysterious, and puzzle me. Evan
takes a pleasure in speaking of you. You and Lady Jocelyn are his great
themes. Why is he to be kept ignorant of your good fortune? The
spitting of blood is bad. You must winter in a warm climate. I do think
that London is far better for you in the late Autumn than Hampshire.
May I ask my sister Harriet to invite you to reside with her for some
weeks? Nothing, I know, would give her greater pleasure.”
Juliana answers this—
“If you love me—I sometimes hope that you do—but the feeling of being
loved is so strange to me that I can only believe it at times—but,
Caroline—there, I have mustered up courage to call you by your
Christian name at last—Oh, dear Caroline! if you do love me, do not
tell Mr. Harrington. I go on my knees to you to beg you not to tell him
a word. I have no reasons indeed not any; but I implore you again never
even to hint that I am anything but the person he knew at Beckley.
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