Death does not always make the deepest graves. His art was buried
deepest of all, and there was just one interest in his life, and that
was not his wife. He was kind to her, but if he had beaten her she would
have kissed his hand; she could not have loved him better. Her life was
"just wrapped round him." He treated her as a lady, and he was a
gentleman. Her manners were always soft and gentle, coming from a sweet
good heart. She grew thinner, and her pride in him and her love for him
and her humility made Molly Fairfax beautiful. There was a great deal of
cruelty in the marriage and in their mating. It was no one's fault, and
the woman suffered the most. Their rooms were in a white frame building
with green blinds, one of the old wooden houses that remained long in
Albany. It did not overlook the yards, for Fairfax wanted a new horizon.
From her window, Molly could see the docks, the river, the night and day
boats as they anchored, and she had time to watch and know them all.
Nothing in his working life or in his associations coarsened Antony
Fairfax; it would have been better for him had it done so. She was not
married to an engineer, but to a gentleman, and he was as chivalrous to
her as though she had been the woman of his dreams; but she spent much
of the time weeping and hiding the traces from him, and in the evenings,
when he came home to the meal that she prepared each day with a greater
skill and care, sometimes after greeting her he would not break the
silence throughout the evening, and he did not dream that he had
forgotten her. His new express engine became his life. He drove her,
cared for her, oiled and tended her with art and passion. There were no
bad notes against him at the office. His records were excellent, and
Rainsford had the satisfaction of knowing that the man whom he had
recommended was in the right place. The irony of it all was that his
marrying Molly Shannon did not bring him peace, although it
tranquillized him, and kept part of his nature silent. He had meditated
as he drove his engine, facing the miles before him as the machine ate
them up, and these miles began to take him into other countries. There
was a far-awayness in the heavens to him now, and as he used to glance
up at the telegraph wires and poles they became to him masts and
riggings of vessels putting out to sea, and from his own window of his
little tenement apartment of two bedrooms and a kitchen, he watched the
old river boats and the scows and the turtle-like canal boats that
hugged the shore, and they became vessels whose bows had kissed ports
whose names were thrilling, and in the nest he had made his own,
thinking to rest there, his growing wings began to unprison and the nest
to be too small. There was no intoxication in the speed of his
locomotive to him, and he felt a grave sense of power as he regulated
and slowed and accelerated, and the smooth response of his locomotive
delighted him. She flew to his hand, and the speed gave him joy.
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