He wrote her that he should not be able to go to Versailles. He deserted
his day's work at Barye's and remained at home modelling. And Dearborn,
seeing Fairfax's distraction, went out early and did not return until
dark. Fairfax found himself alone again, alone with his visions, alone
with his pride, alone with powerful and new emotions.
Sometimes in January, in the middle of the month, days come that
surprise the Parisians with their inconstancy and their softness. The
sun shone out suddenly and the sky was as blue as in Italy.
Fairfax could see the people strolling along the quays, with coats open,
and the little booksellers did a thriving business and the "_bateaux
mouche_" shot off into the sunlight bound toward the suburbs which
Fairfax had learned in the summer time to know and love. Versailles
would be divine on such a day.
His hours spent at the Avenue du Bois de Boulogne must have been
impersonal. His first essay he destroyed and began again. He did not
want to bring these intimate visits suddenly to an end. But when his
sitter very courteously began to question him, he was uncommunicative.
He could not tell her the truth. He did not wish to romance or to lie to
her. Mrs. Faversham, both sensitive and "fine," respected his reticence.
But she found out about him. They talked of art and letters and life in
general, circling around life in particular, and Fairfax revealed
himself more than he knew, although of his actual existence he told
nothing. He enjoyed the charm of the society of a worldly woman, of a
clever woman. He fed his mind and cultivated his taste, delighted his
eyes with the graceful picture she made, sitting, her head on her hand,
posing for her portrait. Her features were not perfect, but the
ensemble was lovely and he modelled with tenderness and pleasure until
the little bas-relief was magically like her. He was forced to remember
that the study was intended as a present for Cedersholm. He was very
silent and very often wondered why she asked him so constantly to her
house, why she should be so interested in so ungracious a companion.
This morning, in his studio on the Quai, he unwrapped his statue of his
mother. It was a figure sitting in her chair, a book in her hand, as he
had seen her countless times on the veranda of the New Orleans house,
dreaming, her face lifted, her eyes looking into the distance. He went
back to his work with complicated feelings and a heart at which there
was a new ache. He had hardly expected that this statue, left when he
had gone to take up the study of another woman, would charm him as it
did. He began to model. As he worked, he thought the face was singularly
like Bella's--a touch to the head, to the lips, and it was still more
like the young girl. Another year was gone. Bella was a woman now.
Everything, as he modelled, came back to him vividly--all the American
life, with its rush and struggle. So closely did it come, so near to
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