"I mean that when the portrait is finished, we will have it criticized
by the subject first, then by some one in whom you have great
confidence, and if you are certain then that you have a vocation, we
will see what can be done--some way will open up. There is always sure
to be a path toward the thing that is to be. But if the criticism is
unfavourable, I want you to promise me to go back to England and to your
people, and to give up art as bravely as you can--I mean, courageously,
like a good soldier who has fought well and lost the battle. Perhaps,"
Fairfax said, smiling, "if I were not an artist my advice would be worth
less, but the place is too full of half-successes. If you can't be at
the top, don't fill up the ranks. Get down as soon as you can and be
another kind of success."
The advice was sound and practical. She listened to his agreeable voice,
softened by the Southern accent. She watched him as he talked, but his
face was not that of an adviser. It was charmingly personal and his
smile the sweetest she had ever seen. She murmured--
"You are awfully kind. I promise."
"Good," he exclaimed heartily, "you are a first-rate sort; however it
turns out, you are plucky."
The most delicious odours of moist earth, blessed with the day's
unexpected warmth, rose on the winter air. Their footfalls were lost in
the leaves. Far down at the end of the alley they could see other
strollers, but where they stood they were quite alone. The excitement of
the unusual outing, the pleasure of companionship, brought the colour to
their cheeks, a light to their eyes. The girl's helplessness, the human
struggle so like to his own, her admiration and her frankness, appealed
to him greatly. His late agitation, useless, hopeless, perilous
moreover, and which he felt he must overcome because it could have
neither issue nor satisfaction, made Fairfax turn here for satisfaction
and repose. They wandered slowly down the alley, her hand within his
arm, and he said, looking down at her--
"Meanwhile, you belong to me."
The words passed his lips before he realized what they meant, or their
importance. He did so as soon as he spoke. He felt her start. She
withdrew the hand from his arm. He stopped and said--
"Did I frighten you?" He took her little hand.
"A little," Nora Scarlet said. Her eyes were round and wide.
Antony held her hand, looking at her, trying to see a deeper beauty in
her face than was there, greater depths in her eyes than they could
contain, more of the woman to fill his need and his loneliness. He
realized how great that loneliness was and how demanding. She seemed
like a child or a bird that he had caught ruthlessly.
"Didn't you drink just now to our friendship?"
She nodded, bit her lips, smiled, and her humour returned.
"Yes, I drank to our friendship."
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