When she had seated herself by the window through which he could see the
roses on the high rose trees and the iron balcony on whose other side
was the rumble of Paris, he stood before her gravely.
"Come and sit beside me," she invited, slowly. "You seem suddenly like a
stranger."
"Mary," he said simply, "the time has come for me to ask you----" The
words stuck in his throat. What in God's name was he going to ask her?
What a fanatic he was! Utterly unconscious of his thoughts, she
interrupted him.
"I know what you want to ask me, Tony, and I have been waiting." She
leaned against him. "You see, I have had the foolish feeling that
perhaps you didn't care as you thought you did. It is that dreadful
difference in our age."
"Do you care, Mary?"
She might have answered him, "Why otherwise should I marry a penniless
man, five years my junior, when the world is before me?"
She said, "Yes, I care deeply."
"Ah," he breathed, "then it is all right, Mary; that is all we need."
After a few seconds he said gently: "Now look at me." Her face was
flushed and her eyes humid. She raised them to him. He was holding one
of her hands in both of his as he spoke, and from time to time touched
it with his lips. "Listen to me; try to understand. I am a Bohemian, an
artist; say that over and over. Do you think me crazy? I have not been
ill. I went into a retreat. I shut myself up with my soul. This life
here,"--he gestured to the room as though it held a host of
enemies,--"this life here has crushed me. I had begun to think myself a
miserable creature just because I am poor. Now, if money is the only
thing that counts in the world, of course I am a miserable creature, and
then let us drink life to its dregs; and if it is not the only thing,
well then, let us drink the other things to their dregs." She said,
"What other things?"
"Why, the beauty of struggling together with every material
consideration cast out! Think how beautiful it is to work for one you
love; think of the beauty of being all in all to each other, Mary!"
"But we are that, Tony."
Now that Antony had embarked, he spoke rapidly. "You owe your luxury to
your husband whom you never loved. Now I cannot let you owe him anything
more, Mary."
She began, "But I don't think of my fortune in connection with him."
Antony did not hear her. "I feel lately as though I had been selling my
soul," he said passionately. "And what can a man have in exchange for
his soul? Of course, it was presumptuous folly of me to have asked you
to marry me."
She put both her hands over his and breathed his name. He spoke
desperately, and the picture rose up before him of his bare studio and
his meagre life.
"Will you marry me now?"
"I said I was quite ready."
"The day will come when I will be rich and great." He paused. He saw
that her eyes were already troubled, and asked eagerly, "You believe
that, don't you?"
"Of course."
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