"Grief is a stone that bears one down." To Dorian, all the world seems
going wrong; his whole life is a failure. The two beings he loves most
on earth--Lord Sartoris and his wife--distrust him, and willingly lend
an open ear to the shameless story unlucky Fate has coined for him.
As for Georgie, she grows pale and thin, and altogether unlike
herself. From being a gay, merry, happy little girl, with "the sun
upon her heart," as Bailey so sweetly expresses it, she has changed
into a woman, cold and self-contained, with a manner full of settled
reserve.
Now and again small scenes occur between them that only render matters
more intolerable. For instance, coming into the breakfast-room one
morning, Georgie, meeting the man who brings the letters, takes them
from him, and, dividing them, comes upon one directed to Dorian, in an
unmistakable woman's hand, bearing the London post-mark, which she
throws across the table to her husband.
Something in the quickness of her action makes him raise his head to
look at her. Catching the expression of her eyes, he sees that they
are full of passionate distrust, and at once reads her thoughts
aright. His brow darkens; and, rising, he goes over to her, and takes
her hands in his, not with a desire to conciliate, but most
untenderly.
"It is impossible you can accuse me of this thing," he says, his voice
low and angry.
"Few things are impossible," returns she, with cold disdain. "Remove
your hands, Dorian: they hurt me."
"At least you shall be convinced that in this instance, as in all the
others, you have wronged me."
Still holding her hands, he compels her to listen to him while he
reads aloud a letter from the wife of one of his tenants who has gone
to town on law business and who has written to him on the matter.
Such scenes only help to make more wide the breach between them.
Perhaps, had Georgie learned to love her husband before her marriage,
all might have been well; but the vague feeling of regard she had
entertained for him (that, during the early days of their wedded life,
had been slowly ripening into honest love, not having had time to
perfect itself) at the first check had given in, and fallen--hurt to
death--beneath the terrible attack it had sustained.
She fights and battles with herself at times, and, with passionate
earnestness, tries to live down the growing emptiness of heart that is
withering her young life. All night long sometimes she lies awake,
waiting wearily for the dawn, and longing prayerfully for some change
in her present stagnation.
And, even if she can summon sleep to her aid, small is the benefit she
derives from it. Bad dreams, and sad as bad, harass and perplex her,
until she is thankful when her lids unclose and she feels at least she
is free of the horrors that threatened her a moment since.
"Thou hast been called, O sleep! the friend of woe;
But, 'tis the happy that have called thee so!"
CHAPTER XXIX.
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