The very air seems dark, the sky leaden, the clouds sad and lowering.
Vainly he tries to understand how he has come to love, with such a
boundless passion, this girl, who loves him not at all, but has
surrendered herself wholly to one unworthy of her,--one utterly
incapable of comprehending the nobility and truthfulness of her
nature.
The world, that only yesterday seemed so desirable a place, to-day has
lost its charm.
"What is life, when stripped of its disguise? A thing to be desired it
cannot be." With him it seems almost at an end. An unsatisfactory
thing, too, at its best,--a mere "glimpse into the world of might have
been."
Some words read a week ago come to him now, and ring their changes on
his brain. "Rien ne va plus,"--the hateful words return to him with a
pertinacity not to be subdued. It is with difficulty he refrains from
uttering them aloud.
"No; he does not disapprove," says Clarissa, interrupting his
reflections at this moment: "he has given his full consent to my
engagement." She speaks somewhat slowly, as if remembrance weighs
upon her. "And, even if he had not, there is still something that must
give me happiness: it is the certainty that Horace loves me, and that
I love him."
Though unmeant, this is a cruel blow. Sir James turns away, and,
paling visibly,--had she cared to see it,--plucks a tiny piece of bark
from the old tree against which he is leaning.
There is something in his face that, though she understands it not,
moves Clarissa to pity.
"You will wish me some good wish, after all, Jim, won't you?" she
says, very sweetly, almost pathetically.
"No, I cannot," returns he with a brusquerie foreign to him. "To do so
would be actual hypocrisy."
There is silence for a moment: Clarissa grows a little pale, in her
turn. In _his_ turn, he takes no notice of her emotion, having his
face averted. Then, in a low, faint, choked voice, she breaks the
silence.
"If I had been wise," she says, "I should have stayed at home this
morning, and kept my confidences to myself. Yet I wanted to tell you.
So I came, thinking, believing, I should receive sympathy from you;
and now what have I got? Only harsh and cruel words! If I had known--"
"Clarissa!"
"Yes! If any one had told me you would so treat me, I
should--should--"
It is this supreme moment she chooses to burst out crying; and she
cries heartily (by which I mean that she gives way to grief of the
most vehement and agonized description) for at least five minutes,
without a cessation, making her lament openly, and in a carefully
unreserved fashion, intended to reduce his heart to water. And not in
vain is _her_ "weak endeavor."
Sir James, when the first sob falls upon his ear, turns from her, and,
as though unable to endure the sound, deliberately walks away from her
down the garden path.
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