Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
There are periods in our lives when we seem to run away from ourselves
and our afflictions; to commence a new course of existence, upon fresh
ground, towards a happier goal. Sometimes, on the contrary, the stream
of life doubles--runs back to old scenes, and we are constrained to
linger amid the desolation we had hoped to leave far behind. Thus was it
with Falkner; the past clung to him inextricably. What had he to do with
those who had suffered through his misdeed? He had fled from them--he
had traversed a quarter of the earth--he had placed a series of years
between them; but there he was again--in the same spot--the same forms
before him--the same names sounding in his ears--the effects of his
actions impending darkly and portentously over him; seeing no escape but
by casting away the only treasure of his life--his adopted child--and
becoming again a solitary, miserable wanderer.
No man ever suffered more keenly than Falkner the stings of remorse; no
man ever resolved more firmly to meet the consequences of his actions
systematically, and without outward flinching. It was perseverance to
one goal that had occasioned all his sin and wo; it followed him in his
repentance; and though misery set a visible mark on his brow, he did not
hesitate nor delay. The journey to Northumberland was long, for he could
only proceed by short stages; and all the time miserable reflection
doubled every mile, and stretched each hour into twice its duration. He
was alone. To look back was wretchedness--to think of Elizabeth was no
solace; hereafter they were to be divided--hereafter no voice of love or
gentle caress would chase the darkness from his brow--he was to be for
ever alone.
At length he arrived at his destination, and reached the entrance to
Belleforest. The mansion, a fine old Gothic building, adorned by the
ruins of an ancient abbey, was in itself venerable and extensive, and
surrounded by a princely demesne. This was the residence of Elizabeth's
ancestors--of her nearest relations. Here her childhood would have been
spent--under these venerable oaks--within these ancestral walls. Falkner
was glad to think that, in being forced to withdraw from her his own
protection, she would take a higher station, and in the world's eye
become more on an equality with Gerard Neville. Everything around
denoted grandeur and wealth; the very circumstance that the family
adhered to the ancient faith of the land--to a form of worship which,
though evil in its effects on the human mind, is to the eye imposing and
magnificent, shed a greater lustre round the place. On inquiry, Falkner
heard that the old gentleman was at Belleforest; indeed, he never
quitted it; but that his daughter-in-law, with her family, were in the
south of England. Mr. Raby was very accessible; on asking for him,
Falkner was instantly ushered in.
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