Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
of ineffable contempt, I said, 'Poor, miserable man! do you think to
degrade me by a blow? but for pity, I could return it so that you would
never lift up your head again from that floor--I spare you--farewell.
You have taught me one lesson--I will die rather than leave Alithea in
the hands of a ruffian, such as you.' With these words I turned on my
heel, and walked out of the house.
"I repaired to a neighbouring public house, and wrote to Alithea,
asking, demanding an interview; I claimed it in her mother's name. Her
answer came, it was wetted with her tears--dear gentle being!--so alien
was her nature from all strife, that the very idea of contention shook
her delicate frame, and seemed almost to unhinge her reason. She
respected her father, and she loved me with an affection nourished by
long companionship and sacred associations. She promised to meet me if I
would abstain from again seeing her father.
"In the same wood, and at the same midnight hour as when before she came
to bring assistance and consolation to the outcast boy three years
before, I saw her again, and for the last time, before I left England.
Alithea had one fault, if such name may be given to a delicacy of
structure that rendered every clash of human passion terrifying. In
physical danger she could show herself a heroine; but awaken her terror
of moral evil, and she was hurried away beyond all self-command by
spasms of fear. Thus, as she came now clandestinely, under the cover of
night, her father's denunciations still sounding in her ears--the friend
of her youth banished--going away for ever; and that departure disturbed
by strife, her reason almost forsook her--she was bewildered--clinging
to me with tears--yet fearful at every minute of discovery. It was a
parting of anguish. She did not feel the passion that ruled my bosom.
Hers was a gentler, sisterly feeling; yet not the less intwined with the
principles of her being, and necessary to her existence. She lavished
caresses and words of endearment on me: she could not tear herself away;
yet she rejected firmly every idea of disobedience to her father; and
the burning expressions of my love found no echo in her bosom.
"Thus we parted; and a few days afterward I was on the wide sea, sailing
for my distant bourn. At first I had felt disappointed and angry; but
soon imagination shed radiance over what had seemed chilly and dim. I
felt her dear head repose on my heart; I saw her bright eyes
overbrimming with tears; and heard her sweet voice repeat again and
again her vow never to forget her brother, her more than brother, her
only friend; the only being left her to love. No wonder that, during the
various changes of a long voyage--during reveries indulged endlessly
through calm nights, and the mightier emotions awakened by storm and
danger, that the memory of this affection grew into a conviction that I
was loved, and a belief that she was mine for ever.
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