Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
Neville cared little for the world. He thought of his mother's wrongs
and sufferings. He conjured up the long years which might have been
spent in wretchedness; he longed, whatever she had done, to feel her
maternal embrace, to show his gratitude for her early care of him. This
was one view, one class of emotions present to his mind, when any
occurrence tended to shake his belief in her unblemished honour and
integrity, which was the religion of his heart. At the same time he, as
much as his father, abhorred that the indifferent and light-hearted, the
levelling and base, should have any food administered to their loathsome
appetite for slander. So far as his father's views were limited to the
guarding Alithea's name from further discussion, Neville honoured them.
He showed Sir Boyvill that he was not so imprudent as he seemed, and
brought him at last to allow that some discovery might ensue from his
voyage. This open-hearted and peaceful interchange of sentiment between
them was very cheering to both; and when Gerard visited Elizabeth the
following day, his spirit was lighter and happier than it had ever been,
and love was there to mingle its roseate visions with the sterner calls
of duty. He entered Falkner's house with much of triumph, and more of
hope gladdening his heart; he left it horror-struck, aghast, and almost
despairing.
He would not return to his father. Elizabeth's supposition that Falkner
spoke under a delusion, produced by sudden insanity; and his reluctance
that while doubt hung over the event, that her dear name should be
needlessly mixed up with the tragedy of his mother's death, restrained
him. He resolved at once to take no final step till the evening, till he
had again seen Elizabeth, and learned what foundation there was for the
tremendous avowal that still rung in his ears. The evening--he had
mentioned the evening--but would it ever come? till then he walked in a
frightful dream. He first went to the docks, withdrew his luggage, and
yet left word that by possibility he might still join the vessel at
Sheerness. He did this, for he was glad to give himself something to do;
and yet, soon after, how gladly would he have exchanged those hours of
suspense for the certainty that too quickly came like a sudden ray of
light, to show that he had long been walking at the edge of a giddy
precipice. He received the packet and letter from the servant; dizzy and
confounded he rode away; by the light of the first lamp he read
Elizabeth's letter; it disordered the current of his blood, it confused
and maddened the functions of reason; putting spurs to his horse, he
galloped furiously on till he reached his father's house.
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