Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
"Yet another word," he continued, seeing Elizabeth about to reply with
eagerness; "and yet how vain are words to persuade. Could I but take you
to a tower, and show you, spread below, the course of events, and the
fatal results of your present resolves, you would suffer me to lead you
from the dangerous path you are treading. If once you reach Cumberland,
and appear publicly as Falkner's daughter, the name of Raby is lost to
you for ever; and if the worst should come, where will you turn for
support? Where fly for refuge? Unable to convince, I would substitute
entreaty, and implore you to spare yourself these evils. You know not,
indeed you do not know, what you are about to do."
Thus impetuously urged, Elizabeth was for a few minutes half bewildered;
"I am afraid," she said, "I suppose, indeed, that I am something of a
savage--unable to bend to the laws of civilization. I did not know
this--I thought I was much like other girls--attached to their home and
parents--fulfilling their daily duties, as the necessities of those
parents demand. I nursed my father when sick: now that he is in worse
adversity, I still feel my proper place to be at his side, as his
comforter and companion, glad if I can be of any solace to him. He is my
father--my more than father--my preserver in helpless childhood from the
worst fate. May I suffer every evil when I forget that! Even if a false
belief of his guilt renders the world inimical to him, it will not be so
unjust to one as unoffending as I; and if it is, it cannot touch me.
Methinks we speak two languages--I speak of duties the most sacred; to
fail in which would entail self-condemnation on me to the end of my
days. You speak of the conveniences, the paint, the outside of life,
which is as nothing in comparison. I cannot yield--I grieve to seem
eccentric and headstrong--it is my hard fate, not my will, so to
appear."
"Do not give such a name," replied Neville, deeply moved, "to an heroic
generosity, only too exalted for this bad world. It is I that must
yield, and pray to God to shield and recompense you as you deserve--he
only can--he and your own noble heart. And will you pardon me, Miss
Raby?"
"Do not give me that name," interrupted Elizabeth. "I act in
contradiction to my relations' wishes--I will not assume their name. The
other, too, must be painful to you. Call me Elizabeth--"
Neville took her hand. "I am," he said, "a selfish, odious being; you
are full of self-sacrifice, of thought for others, of every blessed
virtue. I think of myself--and hate myself while I yield to the impulse.
Dear, dear Elizabeth, since thus I may call you, are you not all I have
ever imagined of excellent? I love you beyond all thought or word; and
have for many, many months, since first I saw you at Marseilles. Without
reflection, I knew and felt you to be the being my soul thirsted for. I
find you, and you are lost!"
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