Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
In the best room that could be allotted to him consistently with safe
imprisonment, and with such comforts around as money might obtain,
Falkner passed the lingering days. What so forlorn as the comforts of a
prison! the wigwam of the Indian is more pleasing to the
imagination--that is in close contiguity with Nature, and partakes her
charm--no barrier exists between it and freedom--and Nature and freedom
are the stanch friends of unsophisticated man. But a jail's best room
sickens the heart in its very show of accommodation. The strongly-barred
windows, looking out on the narrow court, surrounded by high frowning
walls; the appalling sounds that reach the ear, in such close
neighbourhood to crime and wo; the squalid appearance given to each
inhabitant by the confined air--the surly, authoritative manners of the
attendants--not dependant on the prisoner, but on the state--the
knowledge that all may come in, while he cannot get out--and the
conviction that the very unshackled state of his limbs depends upon his
tame submission and apparent apathy; there is no one circumstance that
does not wound the free spirit of man, and make him envy the meanest
animal that breathes the free air, and is at liberty.
Falkner, by that strange law of our nature which makes us conceive the
future, without being aware of our foreknowledge, had acquainted his
imagination with these things--and while writing his history amid the
far-stretched mountains of Greece, had shrunk and trembled before such
an aspect of slavery; and yet now that it had fallen on him, he felt in
the first instance more satisfied, more truly free, than for many a long
day before.
There is no tyranny so hard as fear; no prison so abhorrent as
apprehension; Falkner was not a coward, yet he feared. He feared
discovery--he feared ignominy, and had eagerly sought death to free him
from the terror of such evils, with which, perhaps--so strangely are we
formed--Osborne had infected him. It had come--it was here--it was his
life, his daily bread; and he rose above the infliction calmly, and
almost proudly. It is with pride that we say that we endure the
worst--there is a very freedom in the thought, that the animosity of all
mankind is roused against us--and every engine set at work for our
injury--no more can be done--the gulf is passed--the claw of the wild
beast is on our heart--but the spirit soars more freely still. To this
was added the singular relief which confession brings to the human
heart. Guilt hidden in the recesses of the conscience assumes gigantic
and distorted dimensions. When the secret is shared by another, it falls
back at once into its natural proportion.
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