Adoptees -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction
When Hillary had urged the case, many other objections had presented
themselves to Osborne's mind. He thought of the new honest course he had
pursued so long, the honourable station he had gained, the independence
and respectability of his present life; and he shrunk from giving up
these advantages, and becoming again, in all men's eyes, the Osborne
whose rascality he had left behind in England; it seemed hard that he
should feel the weight of the chain that bound his former existence to
his present one, when he fondly hoped that time had broken it. But these
minor considerations vanished as soon as the idea of Falkner's danger
fastened itself on his mind. It is always easy to fall back upon a state
of being which once was ours. The uncertain, disreputable life Osborne
had once led, he had gladly bidden adieu to; but the traces were still
there, and he could fall into the way of it without any great shock.
Besides this, he knew that Hillary had made his coming, and the cause of
it, known to the legal authorities in Washington; and though he might
persist in his denials, still he felt that he should be universally
disbelieved.
A dislike at being questioned and looked askance upon by his American
friends made him already turn his eyes westward. A longing to see the
old country arose unbidden in his heart. Above all, he could neither
rest, nor sleep, nor eat, nor perform any of the offices of life, for
the haunting image of his benefactor, left by him to die a felon's
death. Not that he felt tempted to alter his determination, and to come
forward to save him: on the contrary, his blood grew chill, and his
flesh shrunk at the thought; but still he might conceal himself in
England; no one would suspect him of being there; he would be on the
spot to watch the course of events; and if it was supposed that he could
render any assistance, without compromising himself, he should at least
be able to judge fairly how far he might concede: his vacillating mind
could go no further in its conclusions. Hoskins had rightly compared him
to the bird and the rattlesnake. He was fascinated; he could not avoid
drawing nearer and nearer to the danger which he believed to be yawning
to swallow him; ten days after Hillary left America, he was crossing the
Atlantic. Hoskins was the first person he saw on landing, the second was
Neville. His heart grew cold; he felt himself in the toils; how bitterly
he repented his voyage. Coward as he was, he died a thousand deaths from
fear of that one which, in fact, there was no danger of his incurring.
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