Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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“It was a close shave,” said the other. “Did you see that young fellow
standing near the edge of the platform? I caught him on the side and
sent him spinning like a top.”
“Why, that was Chance--didn't you know him? I was in too much of a hurry
even to give the poor devil a nod.”
“Good gracious, was that Chance--that madman that threw up his clerkship
at the F.O.!”
“No, he didn't,” his friend replied. “That's what _he_ says, but the
truth is he got mixed up in a disreputable affair and had to resign. No
doubt he has been going to the 'demnition bow-bows,' as Mr. Mantalini
says, but he wasn't so mad as to throw away his bread just to have the
pleasure of starving. He hasn't a ha'penny.”
“Well, _I_ don't care,” said the other with a laugh, and then went on to
talk of other things.
During this colloquy Fan had glanced frequently at her companion, but
Constance, who had grown deathly pale, kept her face averted and her
eyes fixed on the window, as if some wide prospect, and not the rayless
darkness of the tunnel, had been before them. From their station they
walked rapidly and in silence home, and when inside, Constance spoke for
the first time, and in a tone of studied indifference.
“So much going about has given me a headache, Fan,” she said. “I shall
lie down in my room and have a little sleep, and don't call me, please,
when you have supper. I am sorry to leave you alone all the evening,
but you will have something pleasant to think about as you have been so
successful to-day.”
She was about to move away, when Fan came to her side and caught her
hand.
“Don't go just yet, dear Constance,” she said. “Why do you try to--shut
me out of your heart? Oh, if you knew how much--how very much I feel for
you!”
“What about?” said the other a little sharply, and drawing herself back.
“What about! We are both thinking of the same thing.”
“Yes, very likely, but what of that? Is it such a great thing that you
need to distress yourself so much about it?”
“How can I help being distressed at such a thing; it has changed
everything, and will make you so unhappy. You know that you can't marry
Mr. Chance now after he has deceived you in that way.”
“Can't marry Mr. Chance!” exclaimed Constance, putting her friend from
her. “Do you imagine that the wretched malicious gossip of those two men
in the train will have the slightest effect on me! What a mistake you
are making!”
“But you know it is true,” returned Fan with strange simplicity; and
this imprudent speech quickly brought on her a tempest of anger. When
the heart is burdened with a great anguish which cannot be expressed
there is nothing like a burst of passion to relieve it. Tear-shedding is
a weak ineffectual remedy compared with this burning counter-irritant of
the mind.
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