Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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“No, Fan; you need not fear any persecution from me. You are just as
safe in your shop in Regent Street, where you earn your bread, as you
would be at the Antipodes.”
“Thank you,” she returned. “Will you let me go home now?”
“We must go back together as we came,” he said.
“I am sorry you think we must go back together. Is it only to annoy me?”
“Why should you think that, my girl?” he said, but in an indifferent
tone, and still sullenly prodding at the ground with his stick. After a
time he continued, “I don't want to lose sight of you just yet, Fan,
or to think when we part it will be for ever. If you knew how heavy my
heart is you would not be so bitter against me. Perhaps before we
get back to town you will have kinder thoughts. When you remember the
pleasant hours we have spent together you will perhaps be able to give
me your hand and say that you are my friend still.”
Up to this moment she had felt only the pain of her wound and the desire
to escape and hide herself from his sight; but his last words had the
effect of kindling her anger--the anger which took so long to kindle,
and which now, as on one or two former occasions, suddenly took complete
possession of her and instantly drove out every other feeling. Her face
had all at once grown white, and starting to her feet, she stood facing
him.
“Mr. Eden,” she said, her words coming rapidly, with passion, from her
lips, “do you wish me to say more than I have said? Would you like to
know what I think of you?”
“Yes; what do you think of me, Fan? I think it would be rather
interesting to hear.”
“I think you have acted very treacherously all along. I believe that
from the first you have had it in your mind to--to make me this offer,
but you have never let me suspect such a thing. Your kindness and
interest in the Chances--it was all put on. I believe you are incapable
of an unselfish feeling. Your love I detest, and every word you have
spoken since you told me of it has only made me think worse of you. You
thought you could buy me, and if your heart is heavy it is only because
you have not succeeded--because I will not sell myself. I dare say you
have plenty of money, but if you had ten times as much you couldn't buy
a better opinion of you than I have given. My only wish is never to see
you again. I wish I could forget you! I detest you! I detest you!”
Not one word did he reply; nor had he listened to her excited words
with any show of interest; but his eyes continued cast down, and the
expression of his face was still dark and strangely abstracted.
For some moments she remained standing before him, still white and
trembling with the strength of her emotions; then turning, she walked
away through the trees. He did not follow her this time; and when, still
fearing, she cast back one hurried glance at him from a considerable
distance, he was sitting motionless in the same attitude, with eyes
fixed on the ground before him.
CHAPTER XXXIV
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