Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan, arrested in her walk, had been standing motionless before them, and
her eyes, instinctively following the direction of the lady's glance,
travelled down her dress to her feet, where one of her walking-boots,
old and cracked, was projecting from her skirt. She reddened with shame
and confusion, and walked hurriedly on. What would her brother's feeling
have been, she asked herself, if he had met her accidentally there and
had noticed those shabby boots? and with all that money, which she had
been told to use freely, in her purse! A fashionable shoe-shop caught
her eye at that moment, and without a moment's hesitation she went in
and purchased a pair of the most expensive walking-shoes she could get,
and a second light pretty pair to wear in the house. That was only the
first of a series of purchases made that day. At one establishment
she ordered a walking-dress to be made, a soft blue-grey, with
cream-coloured satin vest; and at yet another a hat to match. And many
other things were added, included a sunshade of a kind she admired very
much, covered with cream-coloured lace. With a recklessness which was in
strange contrast to her previous mood, she got rid of every shilling
of her money in a few hours, and then went boldly to the bank. Then her
courage forsook her, and her face burned hotly, and her hand shook while
she wrote out a second cheque for twenty-five pounds. Not without fear
and trembling did she present it at the cashier's desk; but the clerk
said not a word, nor did he look at her with a stern, shocked expression
as if reproaching her for such awful extravagance. On the contrary he
smiled pleasantly, remarking that it was a warm day (which Fan knew),
and then bowed, and said “Good-day” politely.
The feeling of guilt as of having robbed the bank with which she left
Stratford Place happily wore off in time; and when the grey dress was
finished, and she found herself arrayed becomingly, the result made her
happy for a season. She surveyed her reflection in the tall pier-glass
in her bedroom with strange interest--or not strange, perhaps--and
thought with a little feeling of triumph that the grand lady and her
daughters would not feel disgusted at their dimness of vision if they
once more mistook her for their friend “Miss Featherstonehaugh.”
“Even Constance would perhaps think me good enough for a friend now,”
she said, a little bitterly; and then remembering that she had no friend
to show herself to, she felt strongly inclined to sit down and cry.
“Oh, how foolish I have been to spend so much on myself, when it doesn't
matter in the least what I wear--until Arthur comes back!”
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