Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's LifeHudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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Fan : The Story of a Young Girl's Life
Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
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For three days she continued to attend at the office, and beyond a short
“Good morning” from the woman that kept it each day, not a word was
spoken to her. The third day was Saturday, when the office would close
early; and after twelve o'clock, seeing that the others were all going,
she too left, to spend the time as best she could until the following
Monday. The day was windless and bright, and full of the promise of
spring. Not feeling hungry she did not return to her lodgings, but went
for a short walk in Kensington Gardens. Leaving the Broad Walk, she went
into that secluded spot near the old farm-like buildings of Kensington
Palace and sat down on one of the seats among the yews and fir trees.
The new gate facing Bayswater Hill has changed that spot now, making
it more public, but it was very quiet on that day as she sat there by
herself. On that beautiful spring morning her heart seemed strangely
heavy, and her life more lonely and desolate than ever. The memory of
her loss came over her like a bitter flood, and covering her face with
her hands she gave free vent to her grief. There was no person near,
no one to be attracted by her sobs. But one person was passing at some
distance, and glancing in her direction through the trees, saw her,
and stopped in her walk. It was Miss Starbrow, and in the figure of the
weeping girl she had recognised Fan. Her face darkened, and she walked
on, but presently she stopped again, and stood irresolute, swinging
the end of her sunshade over the young grass. At length she turned and
walked slowly towards the girl, but Fan was sobbing with covered face,
and did not hear her steps and rustling dress. For some moments Miss
Starbrow continued watching her, a scornful smile on her lips and a
strange look in her eyes as of a slightly cruel feeling struggling
against compassion. At length she spoke, startling Fan with her voice
sounding so close to her.
“Crying? Well, I am glad that your sin has found you out! Glad you have
met with some thief cleverer than yourself, who has stolen your booty, I
suppose, and left you penniless--a beggar as I found you! I admire your
courage in coming here, but you needn't be afraid; I'll have mercy on
you. You have punished yourself more than I could punish you; and some
day I shall perhaps see you again in rags, starving in the streets, and
shall fling a penny to you.”
Fan had started at first with an instinctive fear--a vague apprehension
that she would be seized and dragged away to be shut up and tortured
as Miss Starbrow had desired. But suddenly this feeling gave place to
another, to a burning resentment experienced for the first time against
this woman who had made her suffer so cruelly, and now came to taunt her
and mock at her misery. It suffocated and made her dumb for a time. Then
she burst out: “You wicked bad woman! You beast--you beast, how I hate
you! Oh, I wish God would strike you dead!”
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