He pushed Evelyn’s hand away and walked to the mantelpiece. The light
of the little electric lamp defined every line, every feature, with all
the havoc that the night had wrought.
"My dear! my dear!" said Evelyn brokenly. There was a fierce battle in
her heart, but she stood silently beside him, and dawn filtered slowly
through the half-drawn blinds.
"I could not have left him but for you," Farquharson said, after a
pause. "He’s lying there now in my dressing-room, on a little bed of
flowers; there were flowers enough in her room and to spare; I took
them. Have you ever seen a dead baby, Eve? He’s like marble now, the
little mouth all set and cold—you would never think it, but he smiled at
me only yesterday. He knew me, you know. I know they say it’s absurd
that a baby of a week old should, but I’m sure he did. He used to
clutch my finger—you would never have believed how strong he was!—and
snuggle in here in the bend of my arm, where I’m holding you now. I had
to be everything to him, you see; his mother had never even had him in
the room from the first." He stopped abruptly. "When I went in to tell
her he was dead, she said, ’Well, I’m afraid that’s the end of your
hopes of an heir, Richard. I shall never go through this again, I
assure you.’"
"Don’t, don’t," said Evelyn; "I can’t bear it!" She caught him in her
arms and held him close, with strength that seemed to have been given
her for that one purpose.
But presently she spoke; clearly, concisely.
"You asked me once to go away with you, Richard, and I refused. You had
your life before you then, and you could do without me. Now you have
nothing. Do you know how I suffer with you in every ache that’s tearing
your heart-strings at this moment? I had my dream-child too, dear—its
loss was bitter enough, but yours was worse. You’ve got the touch of
little, living fingers to remember, the light of dear wee smiles that
were your very own from the beginning. If you want me still I’ll come
to you anywhere, anyhow, so long as I can be with you and comfort you.
When you could do without me, religion was strong enough to keep us
apart, but now it isn’t. Things are too hard for us, and I’ve given
in."
"Eve——!"
He looked at her, stupefied; hardly understanding what she said.
She pulled the blind back.
"See, there is the dawn. Our dawn, Richard. There shall be no grief or
repining if you take me, dear. I’ll make you as happy as I can, and
give you all I have and all I am—your absolute possession, bought by
pain."
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