She was bending her steps towards a radiant vision—Monserrato. Years
before, on a night’s journey from Barcelona, she had come upon it
unexpectedly in the dawn. Her fellow-travellers in the compartment had
departed; she was just then alone with her companion, a portly lady of
uncertain age, who would have slept profoundly through an earthquake.
Tired and over-wrought, Evelyn had for some time been looking at the
landscape with eyes which scarcely took in its significance. Suddenly,
on her right, there rose a vision so startling, so mysterious, that for
a moment she believed it to be the image of her brain, a supernatural
vision. Spire upon spire showed before her, serrated hills, bare and
austere, grey and cold in the first gleam of the morning. She saw their
outlines distinctly for a full half-minute; then, as the railway line
swerved, they were lost to sight, and for a little while she thought
they were a dream. They looked so like hills of illusion, behind which
lay God’s gift of eventual peace. But as the train converged towards
the station the hills came suddenly close again, and she knew them to be
real.
So near at hand, they almost terrified her. One realized in face of
them how Ignatius Loyola had toiled, barefoot, every step of the way
across those rugged paths. They were an obvious _viâ crucis_. To step
across them in shoes, with the ordinary trappings of civilization, was
sacrilege; they compelled renunciation, the absolute denial of all that
life held dear, before a believer dared set foot on that sacred pathway.
Well, she had proved her right to stand there, to walk in the way of the
martyr. The bleeding of human feet is, after all, a temporary small
inconvenience; when the soul bleeds, God tests its loss and gain.
Hour after hour went by; she was too tired to think or read. Now and
again a sharp pain at her heart, like a blow, brought her to herself,
and she had to raise herself from the cushions against which she had
fallen, limp and lifeless, absolutely apathetic, to gasp for breath.
The little physical interruption cleared her brain; she looked quite
clearly at the future, and knew what its ensuing hours would bring. In
time, probably, she would take up old threads again. Habit is strong,
and friends assertive; bury herself as she would, some one would find
her out and come inevitably for help or pity. But she would have to
draw now upon the well of bitterness instead of a sacred fount. No
matter. The water looked as crystal clear; those who sipped it would
not know from what source it had sprung.
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