"Dora Beadon is neither a fish nor a vegetable. She belongs to the new
world which we have created in this after-Victorian era. Don’t think I
complain of her hypocrisy; I suppose we are all hypocrites more or less.
I was one when I tried to persuade a man with a career to marry a
selfish woman, with what I hoped to be a nondescript character, because
I wanted him to save the reputation of a woman who reminds me more of my
niece Asenath than any one I have ever met. As Dora is nondescript, she
may be amiable. But—that mouth of hers! Have you ever seen it in
repose?
"Well, now they are started for good or ill. I pin my faith on the
man’s ambition. All life’s a compromise. No woman can have both a
Grecian nose and a perfect figure; no man can have success and
happiness. And success means more to a man than to a woman. If we are
human, there’s no single moment in which we would not lay down the
biggest prize the world can offer us at the feet of the man we love, and
say, ’Please take it, dear; I only won it for you.’ But a man likes to
have his prize in a substantial form, and keep it on his sideboard, so
that his wife can show it, very highly polished, to his guests. Look at
the presentation cups in our men’s messes! The trophies, challenge
cups! Why, a man can’t even kill a big salmon without having it
photographed or modelled in a glass case. We women kill our salmon
every day and no one knows it.
"So I dispose of Richard Farquharson. He is off my conscience. Life
will give him something, although it is not the thing he wants. And
Dora—she need not complain; she will have a little more wealth, a little
more luxury, a little more panoply of amusement and flattery; that is
enough for her. But there’s still Evelyn.
"She came to the wedding. He made her—her husband. Oh, if she were
only a less good Catholic! It is a magnificent system. It reduces its
subjects to such a pitch of subjection that they obey in spite of
themselves. The happiness, the welfare of one unworthy little soul—what
does it matter, so long as the Vatican coffers are full, so long as the
Celebrations on high days and festivals have still their proper number
of spectators? Inviolable, magnificent, the one wall that will never be
broken, it rears itself ever higher and higher as the ages roll on,
cemented with the blood of a thousand victims whose names will never be
written in any book of martyrology.
"You like human problems, so I give you one. There they stand, the three
of them, as opposed in temperament as any of the subjects in Browning’s
_Ring and the Book_. I cannot depict them; I cannot even prophesy.
Very long ago I found that God knew a great deal more than I did—a fact
that hardly seems possible to the cocksureness of youth. So—wicked old
woman as I am supposed to be by many of my best friends—I end this
letter to you, who know me well, with a real pious intention.
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