There is no hell which equals in intensity the hell of an imagination so
vivid as to create being from what is void. When Farquharson left the
church with his wife, Evelyn followed them every step of the way home.
She looked on to the future; she forced herself to pray for their
happiness, while in her heart she knew that happiness would be her
death-blow. As she had striven for him in the past, using all the human
forces at her command in helping him attain the thing he wished, so she
strove now to make herself desire that he should have the best life has
to offer, not the mere earthly wreath of laurels, but the unfading crown
of peace.
But Farquharson, although she did not know it, had a harder task. He
had tied himself for life to a woman who violated his every belief,
whose nature warred with his at every turn. Realist and man of purpose
as he was, his dear belief that in the world somewhere, somehow, there
lived a second Margaret Cunningham whom he would ultimately possess, had
sweetened all his work since he left Glune. When he met Evelyn he knew
the dream was true, and Glune and she were absolutely at one. He
pictured her its fitting mistress, visiting every haunt of his
childhood, satisfying every memory and tradition, washing away with her
tender tears the bitterness that had grown part of his heritage, as
labourers would clear away useless timber and refuse, making all
wholesome and clean.
Glune was his now again, a princely wedding gift from Calvert and
Beadon, but all pleasure in the possession was gone.
A French writer once said that it is impossible to predict of any woman
the exact change that marriage will make in her. We have all seen love
turn to hate in a few hours under certain circumstances, but there are
subtler changes still. Great emotions may bring havoc to certain
natures; change comes inevitably, whether the emotions be great or
small. Perhaps Dora had cared for Farquharson so far as in her lay
before he became her husband, but now he was her property, an object of
daily use, as important, perhaps, as her sponge or toothbrush, but quite
unworthy of any deep regard. It was better to be with him than without
him. It never struck her that she owed him any duty; if she thought
about the matter at all it was merely to consider that a beneficent
Creator had brought him into being for the special purpose of
accompanying her when she wanted him, and transacting the business that
she had slurred even as an unmarried woman; investing her money to its
best advantage, and paying bills about whose magnitude she no longer
felt even the smallest compunction.
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